Connections

I had a weird dream last night and I think there is a connection between that and the recent events that have been happening in my life. When my grandma and my grandpa and my aunt passed away on my mom's side that is when everything fell apart for my mom. My grandma and grandpa had a will and left my Uncle Curtis (my mom's brother) in charge of it and he basically  disinherited my mom. So basically we don't exist anymore to them which sucks. I wasn't really closed with my mom's family but we were civil to each other and spent time together and once everyone passed away we all fell apart from of each other.
     My dream last night was really weird. Sienna last night had a bad dream. The boys have been wanting this game called Five nights at Freddy's which is a kinda scary game and we decided to download it onto Rocky's Ipad but he had to give up his allowance for that payday which he was fine with. Sienna was watching them play it which I guess was big mistake. So she had a hard time going back to sleep after the bad dream so I was already tired and sleep deprived didn't also help either. I dreamt that we lived in this big house and no one was letting me sleep. In my dream Brody woke up and wasn't feeling well so I was putting his bed together downstairs and for some reason there was a lot of random people in my house. It looked like we were showing it like trying to sale it. And I was getting frustrated and annoyed because I wanted to go back to bed and I couldn't because I had all these people in my house. Then I went back upstairs and ran into my old young woman leader's husband from many years ago and he got me to calm down. And then I walked into this other room and my mom was sitting there with all of her siblings. Which one of them is dead and my aunt Renee (deceased) comes up to me and gives me a hug and tells me how much I have grown and I am just crying in the dream and kept telling her that I missed her. It was weird. I truly believe mediums can portray your loves ones that have passed on. But it really felt like I was hugging her and I really felt her spirit in my dream. It looked like my mom was conducting a meeting in my dream and it was like a intervention to me. But I don't know why I need the intervention when I am the one that wants everyone to get along and make peace.
        It kinda sucks when you want to interact with your family which is your blood and which you love dearly but you can't. The other day I ran into my Aunt Denise my Uncle Curtis' wife and daughter Jessi at Walmart. And I have to say it was so awkward because I couldn't say anything to them and that hurts. My natural instinct wanted to hug them and say hi and ask how they are doing but I can't. But that isn't the first time I ran into them. I wonder why I keep running into them and what does all this mean. I feel like there is a connection between running into them recently and my dream. Maybe it means that they are soon going to come around and welcome us back into their lives. I am the type of person that we are always going to be family regardless of our differences or how many times we fight. We love each other and at the end of the day that is all that matters. I still love my family with all my heart. All of my sides! And I hope at the end of the day they love me too.
     I also thought it was strange that once I woke up in the morning I had a text message from my mom asking me if  I was still willing to take her to see Brenda from The Hidden Sage when in fact I had this dream and she never knew. Me and my mom always had that connection. I believe me and Chris have that connection as well. I always knew from the beginning that me and Chris were suppose to be together. We can always read each other's mind which is creepy but annoying and awesome at the same time. I can say something even before he says it when he is thinking the exact same thing and vice versus. I know this is long but this is something that I want to get out there and remember and let my friends and family know how much they mean to me. And plus I always have strange dreams and I am pretty sure that I will always remember this one.
    I will let everyone know how it goes with Brenda next week and see what she says about all of this!