I am just sick and tired of my job

I am having a hard getting a new job. I apply at one or two jobs a week. I am tired of picking up everyone's slack at work. I am tired of her not hiring anyone else and being comfortable with how things are going there. I am tired of her not changing my schedule around even when I request a day off. She keeps everyone on the same schedule and never changes it around. You can't even call in because you don't have anyone to cover your shift. I would love to work more on the weekdays than the weekends. Maybe I won't have to have a job much longer because Chris got a raise at work and he is doing really well there that he might become a lead because he is so good at what he does. I just wish I can find a job that appreciates my hard work. I am just tired of it all and I just hope it changes around soon. I am sorry but you can't have a set schedule when you work retail; it is just impossible. I just try to avoid my boss at all cost because I really don't want to see her. I am so glad that she is gone by the time I come into work all the time. Everyone please pray that I won't be at my job very much longer. In a couple of months it will be my one year anniversary. Maybe I should just wait until then and then quit. I just don't know how much I can take though.

Feelings about what happened a year ago

A year ago was a hard time for us. Chris was in the hospital for his bacterial infection and it was one of the most scariest times of my life. I never want to relive that day ever again. I understand that it was hard for everyone but everyone has to remember that I am #1 in Chris' life!! Everyone also have to remember that I almost lost a husband!! It wasn't about anyone else but Chris and getting him better. I really hate that everyone forgets that I played a big role in what happened a year ago. I worked my butt off that whole week that he was in the hospital. I took care of 4 kids almost all by myself. If it wasn't for me Chris wouldn't be here today. I am the one that demanded the xray; I am his angel!! When Chris was in the hospital it seemed like his mom wanted all of the attention on her and it was about her. She keeps forgetting that I come first in his life. I understand that she is his mom but I am his wife!! She keeps saying that she had to be there for him when he went to St. Marks and she didn't. I was counting on God to watch over him. It wasn't like I could of stopped doing what I was doing here and go and be with him. He knows that I was thinking of him. He knows that I had important things to do like take care of our children.Who was going to take care of them if I went up there?! And that is all that he wanted from me during that time was take care of things at home. I am pretty sure he would of been fine if no one was there when he got out of surgery. He was probably so out of it anyways that it didn't matter.  I wish that she would stop mentioning it and move on. The reason why I am saying all of this because this has been kept inside for too long and it needs to come out so I can move on. I am so glad that he is well and that everything is good now. God works in mysterious ways and still surprises me all the time. I also want to thank all the doctors and nurses that worked around the clock to help him get better. They are the true heroes in this story!!

Update on my job situation

Things aren't getting better at my work. There is only one positive thing that happened and that is they finally fired that one girl that kept having no calls no shows. It's kinda weird how it all happened. My other co worker had her check missing and she couldn't find it anywhere. When we get our checks our manager puts them in a drawer and my co worker's check went missing the day after I saw it next to my check stub and the next person that was in after me was Leann. After Kassi's check went missing Leann did a no show no call and didn't contact our manager until 2 days later. We believe that she took it because I find that guilty in itself. Lately when I have been getting into work I am so fed up with nothing getting done that it takes all my strength not to walk out. The new guy keeps telling me that I should go try for a manager position because I would be good at it. But I don't think I want all the responsibility and plus the store is so screwed up by this point that I don't want to fix everyone's mistakes. It's pretty bad when the new person can see your potential as well even though he doesn't know you very well. Every time I come into work I always stocked the cigarettes so they are fully stocked during my shift. Well they started this thing where all but the cheap cigarettes are going to be locked in the manager's office and you can't stock them until the manager is there which I think it's stupid. What happens when a customer wants a brand of cigarette and you are out of stock on the shelf and you can't restock them until the manager is there? We are going to have some pissed off customers. It is going to annoyed me so bad because I am a very organized person and if nothing is stocked it's going to drive me nuts. I guess some cigarettes are ending up missing which I find it hard to believe. What is hiding them in the office going to do? Nothing. I think it's stupid to be honest! That is another reason why I am glad to be leaving this place. I can't wait until I gone. I am trying to hang in there but it has been hard trying to find a job.

Brody's 9th Birthday 12-16-17!

This year for Brody's party we decided to have a laid back one and have it at our house. For the past two years we have had it at other places so it worked out great especially 9 isn't such a big birthday and we can do something next year when he is 10 and we are more financially stable.

Brody on his actual birthday on the 11th. He loves his cat Mack!! He is almost as big as him

He had a minion party. Cake from Smith's

This is all that came. Nana, Nana Heckert, Jordan and Kevin and their family with Avien. Johanna was sick so she didn't come. All the nieces and nephews are getting older and doing their own things. :( Aaron with Nana, Trena had to work. Uncle Justin and Brody's friend Roger. We had pizza and cake and ice cream of course. I wanted to use our free movie tickets but Brody wanted to have a sleepover with Roger and his cousin Aaron. It went pretty well! I wish these kids would slow down. 

He is so goofy just like his daddy. Like father; like son haha!! We all had a great time!! We always try to make our kids feel special on their birthdays especially Brody since his birthday is 2 weeks before Christmas. We don't want him to get screwed over so we always make sure he gets what he wants for his birthday parties and that we always give him a birthday present on top of his Christmas presents because I just think that is the right thing to do. Now onto Christmas!! Can't wait to see his face on Christmas. He is such a sweet kid who is always trying to think of others and always trying to do the right thing. We love you Brody! Can't wait to see what next year brings him!!

Why I am deciding to leave Exxon

Every since they took my position away from me when I was working at Motherhood I feel like I don't belong anywhere and I haven't found another job that I love as much as I loved Motherhood. I loved that job; I was proud of it! I have been having a lot of problems with my job lately and I thought I could stick it out. I promised myself and Chris that if things don't change by the end of the year than I am going to find a new job. I don't know what my next steps are. I used to be excited about this job when I first started but the excitement stopped. When I first started working the employees that I worked with are no longer there except one. The overturn rate is so huge; that I have never seen a company loose so many employees since I have been there and I have only been there for 8 months. One of the reasons why I think it is so huge because the management sucks. I get so taken advantage it's not even funny! I have worked every Saturday since I started unless I request it off. And it seems like I am always fighting for my requested days off; doesn't matter what days I request off. Last night was the breaking point; last night the straw finally broke the camel's back. I requested Christmas Eve and Christmas Day off a month in advance and she wasn't going to give me both days off. I understand that we are open 24-7 but I don't care about any other holiday but Christmas. Christmas is very important to me. That is the one day that my dad comes down. I thought that she would be understanding about that; but she wasn't. I go into work everyday that I am schedule on time and work my butt off. I always get the butt end of everyone during the day. I swear no one does anything during the day especially on Thursdays. I come in and have to play catch up and I am running around like a mad woman. And I swear not only am I the only one that does her job but I am the really the only one that comes in on time and that effects me especially when the overnight lady comes in. It doesn't matter how many times she is late or does no shows no calls they keep her around. It seems like they are never going to fire her and that isn't fair. Not only does she not show up some times but she has so much drama that I think that she is high most of the times that she comes in. No one else sees this because she is only scheduled when I am working so I am the one that gets screwed over. I have to admit lately she has been good about coming into work on time but last night it seemed like she went back to her old ways. I had to call her and remind her that she was scheduled and it seemed like I woke her up. She comes in finally and has a washcloth around her hand and it's all cut up. I am the type of person that doesn't get involved into people's personal life but I on the other hand I was concerned and trying to figure out if I should of left her alone or what because apparently she didn't look like she was in the right state to work anyways. If she was upset about anything that happened at home she should of had the decently to call the boss and tell her that she can't come; she should of never not showed up and waited until I call. But I guess we can't all be irresponsible. I swear I work with so many irresponsible people. I take my job seriously! I don't just have a job to play around with money; I have it to help support my family. That is when I realized that it doesn't matter what she does that they are never get rid of her. It's hard to get fired from this place. You either quit before you get fired because you are tired of dealing with all of the crap! I have been holding this in for too long. It's even effecting my sleep. I had a hard time falling asleep last night because I had so much going on through my head; plus I didn't get home until 12:30. I am just so glad Chris found a good company that really shows their appreciation for the employees. I feel like I am stuck and don't know where to go from here. I am happy for Chris! I want to move forward and move up with him and get into a great company like he is at right now. To be honest him being fired from Savers was the best thing for our family. I don't want a job that makes me choose my family over my job and I feel like this job does. It feels like me and Chris switched rolls and I don't like it one bit. So I am not going to leave until I have a new job lined up. It's going to be hard because overall I like the job and I am good at it and I love my customers because I get my same customers in and I know exactly what they want because they usually get the same things all the time. I just need to stop getting taken advantage of and a place that really appreciates their employees and what they do. My boss is going to be sorry once I am gone because I am one of her best employees but you can't have good employees when you take advantage of them because no one is going to put up with it.

I don't want to live here anymore

I have been kinda frustrated lately. I don't want to live at our townhouses anymore. I am not happy here. First of all we have no room for our new tree and ornaments that we have so I am really not in the mood for Christmas. Plus I don't think we can afford Christmas this year and that is the truth. Second I am so sick and tired of one of our neighbors. We have a parking lot in the front of our townhouse that has 6 parking spots and one of our neighbors takes up half those spots so sometimes it's a pain in the butt getting in. Not only does he own his own car but he has several others that he fixes up and sales them. I don't mind that but if you have a lot of cars I think you should get your own place because at that point you aren't considerate of other people. And then he has his daughter and the grandma that lives there that have their own cars and then his wife has her own car. I am just over it at this point. I know I should be grateful to have a place to live but it's kinda hard when the management sucks and they don't listen to you when you have things in your place that needs fixing. I rather have my own place and fix my own things than wait forever for things to be fix. And another thing I am so sick and tired of going into their office and getting attitude every time I tell them that something needs to get fix or if I am just paying rent. I dread the time when I have to go in there because I don't like getting verbally abused. I shouldn't have to be afraid to report things. That is their job to fix things. I am just so sick and tired of the drama around here. We feel like we shouldn't have to deal with it. And on top of that I feel like we are growing out of this place. I feel so overwhelmed here and so does Chris. I just can't take it anymore. I just wished there was a place over here for sale or rent because I don't think I can spend another holiday in here.

Daisy is 2!

Daisy is 2! She is such a smarty pants. Even though she is only 21 pounds she makes it up in her brain. She knows so many words and is already showing interest in the potty. I think she is going to be quick to potty trained. She already went potty once in the potty chair. She is a very demanding girl though and will let you know what she wants. She has such a big personality and picks up on things very easily. She loves animals and has no fear. She is such a bundle of joy and makes our family complete.

We had her birthday party on Saturday at Arctic Circle with the whole family. It was really nice!

It was a My little Pony theme. Cake from Smith's fresh market.

I loved her expressions from her gifts

All of her gifts!

Than Sunday we celebrated my birthday and went and looked at the fall colors and had a picnic. It was a great weekend full of birthdays. I wished my dad was down here. It wasn't the same without him. First time I think in 3 or 4 years that he hasn't came down for our birthdays so it was weird not having him here. We still had a great weekend! We didn't want it to end!! Me and Chris also had a great dinner just me and him at Sizzler's. I love these moments!!