All settled in!

We are now all settled into our new home and we love it. Things are going great for us! We love the room and its a lot bigger than our old apartment for sure. I love how we have a washer and dryer now and a dishwasher and everything. And the kids are adjusting very nicely, I think they like having their own room. I for sure is thrilled to have my own bathroom. Since we moved into our new house I've been thinking about a lot of things and I realized that I need to reevaluate my life and figure out what I really want. I need to change a few things in my life to feel a lot better. I started crossed sticking and I am starting to really like it. My first project is an birth announcement for Brody and I have to say I am doing really good with it. And its also making me relaxed a lot and I am liking that. My friend Teala made one for Rocky and I thought I would make one for Brody. The reason why I got my first project is because I am sick and tired of the same thing everyday. Tv is getting boring and so is internet and nothing is going to change until I change it. I also found a new love putting the ties on blankets. I don't know what that is called but during a bridal shower I did it for the first time and I loved it. I just need to think of other things to do with my time other than just sitting around doing nothing. And speaking of friends that is another reason why I need a change. I've been trying to hang out with my old friends that I usually hang out with I think I need to start hanging out with the friends that I blow off. I need something new and someone new to hang out with. I don't know, I just think moving into our own place and adjusting to a new change got me wanting to change a lot of things in my life. I also have to figure out what I want to do with a career. Every since I left toys r us I have been having issues about trying to find a job because I am afraid of not finding something that I love. I loved working at Toys R us and I was mad about how it turned out. I was really good at what I did and enjoyed everyone I worked with and the memories. I was going to stay there a lot longer but shit happens. Right? I don't want to just settle, I want to find something that I really want to do and that I know that I am going to love, I just don't know what that is right now and that is something I need to figure out also. I think me reevaluate my life is going to be a huge change and a good thing. I am excited for this. I am excited for more happy things to come into our lives.

Update!

Sorry for the absence. Nothing really new has been happening around here. We are still in my in laws house but not for long. I have to say I am so ready to get out and get into our own place again. This summer is almost over and I have to say in a way I am glad its over but in another way I am not. It just went by too fast. So I have to say its been a long summer both my grandparents past away this summer and a few weeks ago my aunt passed away from Terminal Cancer. I have to say with all these deaths it made me think about my brother a lot. He passed away over 10 years ago from a car accident. I miss him more these days. With all these deaths I haven't had time to really grieve so maybe it will finally hit me when we get into our own trailer, maybe it won't we just have to see.

Now onto a happy note! Brody got his first tooth!!! It broke through a couple of nights ago. He isn't really cranky just mostly at night. But he is so proud of it. He is growing up too fast before we know it his first birthday is going to be here and that is something I just don't want to think about. It seems like just yesterday I had him. Apparently my children get their teeth late because Rocky was around this age also when he got his first tooth. I always say better late then never right.

I guess Rocky isn't going to Headstart. He is on the waiting list. I had to find out from calling them that we are 130% above the poverty line and they filled up the classes first with kids that are 100% below the poverty line whatever that means. It makes me so sad for him because he was so excited to start school, I just hope that he isn't behind. It also makes me sad because all his family and friends are going to be in school this year and he isn't. I guess we just have to wait and see. But I have come to the conclusion that he isn't going this year unless a miracle happens.

Other than that this is all that is really happening. All I have to say is I just can't wait until Tuesday comes. More moving to happen and I am not looking forward to that but I looking forward to the result. Well we aren't owning the trailer but we are renting but its still a big step for us. The whole time that we have been married we have lived in apartments and we are just ready to move forward and I am so glad. Its going to be a permanent move for a while and I am so thrilled I can barely contain myself. Its basically ours and I couldn't be more proud of ourselves.

Things are changing

I decided to update this since I haven't in a while. Things have been quite busy in our household lately. I haven't had a chance to sit down and relax. The weekend before the 24th me and Rocky got sick with the 24 hour stomach flu and that was draining, I have to say. Good thing it was only 24 hours and Brody didn't get it. I am glad that we got over it, the only thing I have is a cold that I am trying to get over. All I have left is a cough that seems to not want to go away. Lately we have been looking at trailers and we have good news we are moving! Last Thursday we turned the papers in and got approved Monday. All we have to do now is pay the deposit and we are going to do that the 6th and since we won't be able to pay the first month's rent until September we have to stay with Chris' parents for a month. I really don't like the idea of that but we have no choice if we want to save on money. Its seems to good to be true for me because we have been let down so many times but its happening I think way too fast though. Because the day after we turned in the papers my grandpa died, it was really hard on me. I didn't think I was going to react the way I did but I guess when you lose two grandparents within two months of each other its kinda hard. Sorry to say but I don't think its going to end there because my aunt isn't doing too well. She has terminal cancer and she has cancer cells all over brain where they can't get it. Its make me sad to see her suffer like that because she looks so weak. The only good thing about this is that I know that they aren't alone anymore and they aren't suffering but its still hard. Yesterday I went to my grandparents house and it was so weird being there without either one of them because I have never been there without them. I was so expecting to walk in and see my grandpa sitting in his chair relaxing. So right now we are packing and getting ready to move and I just don't know how to slow down because things aren't going to slow down anytime soon. I want to thank everyone that supported us and had faith in us. Its just time for a change in location because I feel like so many things are changing right now that we just have to go with the flow and go with the change. I don't know if I am ready for change but ready or not here it comes!

Our recent fishing trip since 2006

I've been wanting to go fishing for a while now and when I finally got my fishing license I was so excited. We haven't been fishing since our camping trip in 2006 so it was a while since I went last and it took me a little bit to freshen up my memory of how to use the rod but I got a hang of it. Chris' dad took me and Rocky out today and this was practically the first time Rocky ever held a fishing rod on his own and he did so well. He is a natural born fisher just like his mommy! We didn't catch anything but we did see a big fish and I was so anxious to get that thing but I guess he just wasn't hungry. We are for sure going to go out more this summer. I feel its fair, Chris goes golfing with his dad now its my turn to have quality time with him and go fishing. Even though we didn't catch anything we still had a blast, Rocky was just so excited to be helping out on fishing.

Brody's 1st 4th of July

The 4th of July for us was pretty good. It was much better than last year's that was for sure. I was so determined this year to have a great 4th. Last year all I did was sit on my butt at Chris' parents house and did nothing. Nobody wanted to do anything last year. I didn't have the car last year because I worked in the morning and Chris had to take the car for work. So this year I told Chris I was for sure going to take the car so I wouldn't be stuck anywhere. Speaking of Chris he had to work again this year. I don't remember us having a whole 4th of July as a family in a long time. His Store Manager always has it off every year but Chris promised me that next year he will request it off so I am looking forward to that. I just wished that the day yesterday was longer to do more stuff. The day started off good because I was finally able to go to the parade with my children. The past few years I had to work during the parade so this year was really special, not only was it Brody's first but also because I got to spend the whole day with my kids. This year was a realization that the 4th is mostly for the children. As long as they are having fun that is all that matters and when they have fun I have fun. We didn't go to any parks because I didn't have money and plus we tried to go to the Kaysville park because their blow up things were free but when we got there they were closed until 5 and we weren't going to go back because we had to be at a bbq and I had to pick up Chris around that time. Chris and I did spend a little time together, we had lunch together at his work so that was nice. I spent a lot of time with my sister Johanna and I liked that because we don't get to spend a lot of time together. We went over to our grandpa's to pick up my mom and I think that was the last time I will ever get to see my grandpa alive so it was pretty sad. He doesn't look too good, he lost a lot of weight and you can just tell that he isn't going to live very much longer. So it was nice to see him on the 4th. The best part was the fireworks of course because that is when me and Chris can spend more time together, I just wished that we would of saw store bought fireworks but that is ok. Overall the day was good, I was so exhausted by the end of the day, even the kids were pooped out. The cute part of the day was that Brody was just in awe with the fireworks in the sky, he would not pull his eyes away from the sky for a minute. I am just thankful that my kids had a blast.

The boys' first Raptor's game and The Guardian

Yesterday I went to my first Raptor's game and it was awesome! Even though we only had General Admission seats it was perfect. We got a little bit of rain when we first got there but it felt good. I rather of had General Admission seats anyday. And the boys were great also. Both Chris and our nephew Aaron got a ball so that was nice. I just wished we had it sign because that would of been a great thing to have. It was a wonderful time with the family, I couldn't of asked for a better night. Brody enjoyed it but I think it was the fact that we were outside the whole time, he is such a outdoor baby. And then when we got home we had our friend Luke come over and he brought over The Guardian. He just came back from The Marines for good and I am glad for him to be home. The Guardian was a great movie, I never have been into a movie as much as I was into this movie. It was so intense that I was literally off my seat the whole time. I would recommend this movie to anyone. So all and all yesterday was a great day for the whole family.

A recent picture of Brody-June 19th 2009