Hoping for good changes

I hope things get better for us. I just want better for my kids. After finding out today that we weren't going to be approved for a house loan and there was no point in running the application it was kinda discouraging. I believe this apartment that we are living in is slowly killing us. Our landlord fixed the toilet but before he left he told me not to get the seal around the toilet on the bottom wet. He didn't tell me how long or what but he is right because the seal is melting away from the toilet. It seems like no matter what he does to our apartment it isn't enough. This apartment is way too small for us! I don't want Sienna to share a room with her brothers forever. I just hope things turn around soon. The reasons why we can't get a house loan is because of our car loan and student loan. We just got a new van in February because we had no choice and both our names are on it. It would be better if just my name was on it but because I don't make enough income I can't. And that would help a little bit because than not everything would be on Chris' shoulders. And then the student loan debt doesn't help either. We need to pay those off but with two being 150 dollars a month there is no way that we can pay those off while we have other bills so we are going to send in a form to have it based off our income and see if that helps. They said that I have to be at my job for 2 years for it to count but I really don't want to be stuck here for two years, there is no way that we can survive. I know it probably sounds like I am not thankful but I am. It is just frustrating you know. I guess we just have to go look around for a house or an apartment for rent that we can afford that is bigger. We also just want to have another child and there is no way that I am having another baby in this small two bedroom apartment, it's not happening. We just need all the prayers we can get. I think we should of never went to college but we can't think of the what if's we just have to make the best of the situation. We went to college for Graphic Design and got our associate degree and nothing to show for it. I just have to think of this as a speed bump in our marriage and we always have had speed bumps in our marriage and have always made it over them and it had made us stronger. I believe we can get over this speed bump and be a lot stronger once again!