Choose your friends wisely!!!

Does anyone have a friend that keeps making excuses for not staying in touch? Well I used to have one of those friends. I am going to used her real name in this blog because its my blog and I have the right. My adrenaline is running so bad right now that I feel the urge to write. My old friend Tasha and I used to be best friends growing up. When she moved away we grew apart. The only way we stayed in touch was through myspace or on the phone but most of the time that wasn't enough. Me and her got pregnant the same time I did with Brody and her with her first. She would always say I was her best friend and that we will always keep in touch but I was a fool to believe that. After I went to her baby shower we agreed that we would tell each other when we had our babies. She didn't tell and I had to find out by calling several different hospitals. All the time she would tell me excuses about why she didn't tell me this or include me into this and time after time I forgave her and let her back into my life. But this one special event that happened in her life drew me to the edge. She would never answer her calls when I call so I kinda got the feeling that she was ignoring me. Does anyone else get that feeling sometimes? And most of the time anyways her phone would be off so I would not know how she was doing. The last time she talked to me was a year ago after her daughter was born she told me that she was pregnant again. Did I find out when she had that one? NO! And listen I am suppose to be her best friend. I decided to delete her off my friends list a long time ago because she was never on and plus I was done but I still thought about her because its only natural. Then today I went onto her profile and found out that she got married. I was soo pissed! I don't even know when she got married. She didn't even tell me and I remembered long ago that I was going to be her bridesmaid. Whatever happened to that? Well I am done! Its not even worth it. I am tired of the excuses, I am tired of being worried about her and wondering what is going on in her life, I am tired of not being part of her life anymore like I used to. Heck her mom used to treat me like one of her own. That is why I don't have a best friend anymore because of people like that. Fuck people like that! You call yourself so call friends, yeah right! I got my close friends and family and that is all that I need. I know NOW who is my friends and who isn't. And if no one wants me around than I am not going to stick around. Please tell someone that you don't want to be their friend anymore, just don't leave them hanging because that is just so wrong. And if no one wants me as friend than that is their lost not mine. I tried and tried and tried and I am done trying. Its so exhausting that I can't even count the times I try to make contact and got nowhere.

An update for the New Year

I was reading my blog and realized that I need to update a little bit. I am still looking for a job and I have to say it hasn't been easy. I applied at so many places and before giving me a chance they turn down my application even before I get an interview. I didn't get that Production of Graphic Design job and I don't know why. He never responded back to my resume and I tried to get a hold of him and he never responded back to that either. I really wanted that job because it would of been perfect for me. I hate when jobs leave you hanging. But I moved on and tried to get a new job. I went to this Census test and so far so good but I am not getting my hopes up. You had to get a 10 or more right on the test to passed and I got a 20 out of 29 questions right. It was a pretty simple test, just general information on things you have to know for the Census job. They called me today to ask a question about my degree from Eagle Gate and that is all they wanted so that is a good sign because I know that they are at least looking at the test and application. This job would be so good for us. It pays 11.00 an hour. So while I am waiting I am still looking so I have something to fall back on.

Chris is still working at Gamestop as Assistant Manager but he is hating retail more and more everyday. He is saying that its making him a different man but I just think its from the manager that he is working with. I know things will get better for him at work once I get a job because than he won't be so stressful about money. I think its a lot of things that he is going through right now that is making him feel the way he is feeling. When he isn't working he is doing Ghost Hunting. Him and his buddies have a group called 4gh and they go to potential places to find the truth. He really enjoys it and I support him in it. I believe in that stuff because I have witness myself a ghost place. At least he isn't hurting anyone and plus he is always careful when he goes out. Everyone needs a hobby and that is his hobby.

Rocky is still on the waiting list for Headstart but he moved up. He is now number 5. The last lady I talked to was really helpful. I guess when we registered I still had a job so I updated all my information and she said if we fax her Chris' last paycheck stub from 2009 there is a good chance that he will move up. I am so looking forward for him going to school. I know that he will enjoy being with other children his age and also I think it will be good for all of us. I think most of the time we get on each other's nerves because he is always home with me and we know what pushes each other's buttons. I also think him going to school will change his attitude a little bit and get him smarter. He is such a smart ass sometimes but I love him. He really helps out his brother and likes playing with him. He is such a good friend to Brody and I hope it stays that way.

Brody is getting so close to walking. He cruises the furniture likes its nothing and walks the walls he just needs to gain more confidence and he will be good to go. He also has another tooth coming in...HIS THIRD! He is taking a while to get more teeth but that doesn't stop him from eating anything and everything. He is getting more cuter everyday! I am enjoying watching him grow everyday.

I am so looking forward to this year because its going to be a good one for sure. I know as of right now things are a little bit tough but I know we are going to hit a few rough patches before we reach the final product. We are so eager to get our tax returns back because we are going to get back on track, buy new couches and save our money this time so we are not stuck in a rut again. I think once we get back on track and pay everyone off things will then fall into place. Once I get a job things will get even better because then I can help Chris with the bills and then his checks wouldn't have to go to everything. We now realized that we can't live off one income, its just not possible anymore. Our goal last year was to get into a home and out of those apartments and we accomplished that so now we have to focus on getting financially stable and I know we can do that. And once we are financially stable I know things will approve on everything in our lives because we will be a lot happier. Once we get all stable I would love to go on vacation, that is the next step. I believe that there is going to be good things to come. Now that we have moved on from all the deaths that happened in 2009 we can now look forward to more positive things.

Merry Christmas!

We started out Christmas this year on Christmas eve. We went to my mom's on Christmas eve to open presents there. My dad sent presents to her house since we were all there and it actually got there on time. It was a good time with family. We had dinner and opened presents. We didn't have a lot of money this year so I just found some things around the house that I haven't used and that I probably won't used and wrapped it for my sisters and my mom. Its the thought that counts, they loved their presents so that is all that matters. On Christmas morning we opened presents at our house and we decided on 3 gifts each for the boys and for each other. One big one and 2 small ones. Our big gifts were on a budget of 50 dollars. The boys had a really good Christmas and so did me and Chris so it worked out perfectly. Then after we opened gifts at home we went to Chris' mom and dad's and had breakfast and opened gifts there and then went home and Chris' uncle Kenny came over and we opened more. Then we went back to their house and had dinner so its been a busy day! So we got plenty of gifts this year. All I have been doing all day is rearranging rooms and putting toys away so its been a long day. I love the Christmas holiday time to spend with family and friends. Tuesday we went to our friends Brandy and Chris Greene house to open gifts there. Thanks to all that gave us presents and I hope everyone loved their presents from us. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!!

Rocky's Presents

Brody's Presents

Note: They had a lot more but I didn't take a picture of them because I was busy unwrapping presents and putting them away! LOL!!

Brody is now 1!!!

I can't believe Brody is already 1. I had him a year ago today at 2:13 pm and he weighed 6 lbs 14 oz. and 19 inches long. Even though he weighed less then Rocky he sure is the opposite of Rocky. He is a big boy and he lets everyone know. He loves people food, he has every since he started eating baby food. He is my big eater, defiantly not what Rocky is. He is such a happy baby and a friendly baby, he will go to anyone that is willing to hold him. He loves his brother very much so, they play all the time and his brother loves him very much.
I went all natural with him, no medicine and I wouldn't want to go any other way. Maybe that is why he grew up too fast. I had an epidural with Rocky and I hated it. When I was getting off the epidural with Rocky I was shaking uncontrollably and I didn't like that feeling, plus when they give you one they put a big tape on your back to keep it in and that tape took forever to get off. So after that I was determined to go natural and I loved it. Plus, the recovery time is a lot faster when you go natural. I have to say the natural is AMAZING, its like an adrandine rush, I think everyone can go natural you just have to concentrate on your breathing and be calm and not freak out and you can do it. The pain isn't that bad and once you have that baby in your arms you forget about the pain and you realized that it was so worth it. I was in labor with him for 6 hours and Chris, his mom, and my mom were the only ones in the room. He is a fast learner, not what Rocky was. Brody crawled at a early age (7 months) and when he learns something new its like he has been doing it all along because he doesn't even think about it. He is such a big boy and I am very proud to have him in our family. Brody brings so much joy in all of our lives that we couldn't imagine out lives without him.

Time to give thanks!

This year we had thanksgiving at our house. The first year we ever had it at our house. We promised each other when we get our own place that we will have thanksgiving over there. I have to say that cooking all that food makes you so exhausted. I was up since 7 that morning cooking and nonstop from there because you have to clean up the mess after everyone is gone and everything. My mom, my brother Justin, Chris parents, my sister Jordan and her family, my sister Johanna and her family and us of course all came. It was kinda a pot luck because my mom brought a pie, Johanna brought drinks and Jordan brought cranberries. Brody for sure knew what thanksgiving was all about, he literally stuffed himself. Next year is someone else turn. But it went really well at our house. I was quite surprised how great it went. It was my first time cooking Turkey and I did an awesome job! I am so proud of myself that I went through on it. I just wanted it at our house with everyone together because my family is usually spread out on Thanksgiving and plus since I lost some family members this year that family now means more to me than anything and I want to keep them close as long as I can. I for sure don't take family for granted anymore.
Sorry for the absence, things have been rough lately. Comcast screwed up our bill and shut off everything; phone, internet, and cable so we have been living without that stuff for two weeks. Its been rough, I for sure don't take anything for granted anymore. So we are for sure not going to go back to Comcast. To make a long story short they charged us for a month that we were even living on our own at the time so they screwed up on that one. Thanks to family, because they have been so helpful throughout this whole thing, especially chris's parents. They have been letting us use their phone, internet, and tv so I know I am very grateful for them. I can't forget Trena either because she has been coming over and letting us use her cell phone and I couldn't thank her enough. Hopefully things get better for us, I know the year is going to end in a rough notes but once the holidays are over I believe that we will get our feet back on the ground once again. That is what taxes are all about! Plus I am waiting on this job to get back to me on a Production of Graphic Design and it would be so perfect for me. My dad sent me the listing and I sent him my resume and just waiting for a respond back and its killing me. It would help us out so much because it would pay 10 to 11 dollars an hour. So I am been praying almost everyday and keeping my faith in God and anything is possible with him. That is all I can do right now since we are going through this. I also want to thank all our friends for staying by our side and supporting us and comforting us, I don't know how I would of made it through without them either. My friends keep me sane. I also want to thank them for coming over all the time to just see how we are doing or just to hang out, that met a lot to me.

THIS IS WHAT I AM THANKFUL FOR THIS YEAR:

1. A house over our heads
2. Our health
3. My children
4. Being able to afford Christmas for my boys
5. The food in our bellies
6. The clothes our are backs
7. Family and friends
8. Most importantly God, without him I wouldn't be able to make it through the day
9. I also thankful that Chris still has a job, not a lot of people can say that

On a good note, I just couldn't keep this in any longer after I heard the news. I am going to be an AUNT again! My sister Johanna is pregnant again. She has a 6 year old son and I am so thrilled for him. He was wanting a sibling for so long! So maybe in a way God has answered my prayers in a way because now I can concentrate on that instead of us for a while. When I heard the news I was jumping up and down literally. Children are such a blessing from God!
I will keep you guys all updated on how we are doing and if I hear from that job. I hope I get it, but now its all in God's hands because I did all that I could for the time being.

A greek orthodox baptism

Yesterday me and the boys went to our very first Greek Orthodox Baptism. It was a really interesting and a new experience for us. We went to support my friend's daughter who was getting baptized. There was a lot of people there to support her. I felt like a fish out of water because I didn't know what to do. I was watching everyone and looking at their body expression to see what to do next...LOL! I had no idea what they were doing because we were seated in the back and I also had no idea what they were saying. I have to say it was the longest baptism I ever been to. After the baptism they had a luncheon and it seem like forever that we were able to eat and I was starving. You can tell that a lot of people loved her and was there to support her, it was also Susie's birthday (the girl getting baptized) so it was a special event. One of my favorite parts was the food of course, I love Greek food. I am just glad that the boys were good and enjoy the music. One of the things I realized that all the Greek girls are not that good looking and you can tell who is Greek and who isn't lol. Oh another thing everyone got a gift so I thought that was pretty cool. I never been to a baptism where we got something. It was a cute vase thing that had two angels on it. Its the prettiest thing I have ever seen. Now we will always remember that we went to a Greek Orthodox Baptism.

My favorite time of the year-HALLOWEEN!!!

Our family picture for Halloween 2009.

Me as a 49ers Cheerleader. Everyone was giving me crap saying I was a Redskin Cheerleader. Come on I am 49ers fan! My mom made me the costume and I think she did an excellent job!
Chris as 49ers football player!


Rocky as Bumblebee Transfomer! He loves transformers
And Brody as the cutest Football ever!

We had an awesome Halloween together as a family. Chris was off so it was great to be all together. This year was the first year we went to the mall and I have to say we are going to go back because they give you a butt load of candy. Then we went to the old folks home like every year. Rocky likes going there and going to each person and getting candy but they did it a little bit different this year so it was kinda disappointing. Instead of having us go inside they had table outside in the front and we just were able to pick candy up from the tables. I think the reason why they did that because of the swine flu and to be careful about not getting the seniors sick. Then we went to trunk and treat. Whatever happen to the tradition. I always loved going door to door with my friends and trying to get the most candy. I hate trunk or treat and Rocky was kind iffy about that. Come on going trick or treat to each trunk is kinda strange to me. Now that Halloween is over onto Thanksgiving. This year has come by too fast. I can't believe that Brody will be 1 next month, it seemed like I just had him. He grew up too fast, faster than what Rocky did that is for sure. We are thinking about having Thanksgiving at our house this year since we got our own place but I am still debating about that one. So overall this Halloween was awesome. I am so glad Rocky is at the age where he enjoys Halloween a lot more and he can also pick out his own costume!