What has been happening lately

Ok lately I have been feeling down lately. I feel like I ruined my chance to get that Data Entry job. I don't know exactly what happened but all I know is I am confused and I don't know how to change it. Some of you are going to say I told you so but I don't want to hear that right now. I guess in some ways no one knows what I am going through. It was a hard decision for me to make and a lot of people are probably saying it was easy, maybe for you but for me it was really hard. First of all I have been out of a job for a year and it would of been weird for me to go back all that time. Second I have never done anything like that so it would of been a new experience for me and third I wasn't too sure about the circumstances the lady was under and it scared me. All I know is I kept asking her questions via e-mail to learn more about the job because we all know that its good to ask as much questions as you need to get the answers and then after that she sent me an e-mail telling me that she still is in the interview process and she probably won't make a decision until next week, that was over two weeks ago and I still haven't heard back from her. I tried to e-mail asking her if she has made a decision and she never responded back and that was almost a week ago. To me it sounded like I already had the job I just had to think about it and get back to her so I am really confused. A lot of you are also probably thinking is it worth it to look for a job and go through all of this. And I am beginning to think about that myself.


It would be just easy to say just to give up and stop looking but if I do that then things won't change in our household. We really want to go on vacation and the only way we can do that is if I get a job and put money away every month to save up for it. Right now we can't save any money for anything, all our paychecks go to bills and we rarely have money left over to do anything else. We also want to take the boys to the zoo and things like that and we can't afford that right now. A lot of you are probably saying those things don't cost that much but where you are in a tight budget like we are we just don't have the money for that. The last time we went on vacation I think it was me and Chris' honeymoon, I am not sure of that though. I just don't remember that is the thing. Lately Chris' hours have been cut because what his boss says is that he isn't being a good manager so in a way its to punish him. In a way it has worked because it was like a wake up call for him and he is doing a lot better. I feel his old boss almost ruined his old attitude about the job because he blamed everything on Chris so hopefully this new boss does the opposite and tries to help him. And since his hours have been cut its been taking like 100 dollars off our checks and that money could make more of a difference. I am not trying to complain I am just being real and trying to explain to everyone how I feel.


The boys on the other hand are happy and that is all that matters. They have each other and I am so thankful that they love each other so much. Rocky is going to start kindergarten this year and he is getting smarter everyday and going to get even more smarter once he starts school. It will be a whole new experience for all of us. I am so excited for him because I think he will enjoy being with other children other than his family. He loves learning and loves being around other kids so I think he will love the time away from his family especially me. I think since me and him get on each other nerves sometimes because we are constantly with each other so I think this new change will help us all. Brody is getting bigger and smarter everyday. Sometimes I think he too smart for his age. All the time he understands what we are saying to him and it amazes me everyday. He never sits still anymore, he is constantly walking around and playing. He wears me out most of the time trying to catch up to him but I wouldn't want it any other way. He is almost off the Binky and I will be so thankful when that is gone so I don't have to worry about it anymore. Rocky's 5th birthday is coming up and we are trying our hardest to give him the best birthday with little money we have. That is why I was hoping to get that job before his birthday comes so we can have a little bit more money coming in but I just don't see that happening any time soon.


Another reason why I am so down is I can't do any hobbies or hang out with my friends because I have no money to do any of that stuff. I guess the whole point of being down is money. I truly believe money is the root of all evil. I hope some miracle happens because I am kinda sick and tired of living this way.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions.

So today I went for that Data Entry job interview. It was kinda interesting. The lady's name was Valerie and she owns her own business inside her home. She needs someone to enter Data into the computer using Quickbooks, kinda like an assistant. She is constantly busy and doesn't have time to enter in all that info. Its pay 8.50 an hour and its part time 5-10 hours a week and I can work whenever. I can come in whenever I want and I can wear whatever I want. The ideal job right? A lot of people right now are probably saying I should take it since I have been looking for a job for a long time but I just don't know if I really want to take it. I guess she has several businesses that she runs and on top of that she works a full time job and a part time job, she says she always has to be busy or she will go nuts. I don't know how she does all that when she has two kids, its crazy. The best part of it is she is very flexible so I can work whenever and that would be great with Chris' crazy schedule. I guess I just really have to think about and think if its going to benefit me and my family very well and if its going to be worth it. If anyone has any advice I would love to hear it.

Easter!!

This Easter was a really busy one but I like it. Since I am home all the time its nice to get out and spend time with the family. Once the boys woke up they saw their baskets and they both went after separate things. Brody went straight for the candy and Rocky was looking for his car but he didn't get a car this year.

And then after they saw their baskets they went outside and looked for the eggs that the easter bunny left. This was the first year that we hid the eggs outside because we never had our own yard before so it was nice. Brody wasn't interest in finding the eggs all he wanted to do was run around. Maybe next year he will be more interest. Rocky is at the age where he understands that the easter bunny leaves him eggs and gifts but when it comes to him in person he gets terrified and wants nothing to do with him. He is one strange kid. After that we went to the park with my family and looked for eggs there and had lunch and then after that we went to Chris' parents' house and found eggs there and had lunch/dinner so it was a busy day. In the end both boys had a blast and got lots of eggs. I even had fun watching the boys enjoy themselves.

Update on Brody

First of all I want to thank everyone that was so concerned for him. It really scared us and we don't want to go through that again. He is doing really well. He is back to his original self and I couldn't be any happier. His fever stayed down and didn't go up since Sunday. He did really well on his antibiotics and he is practically done with that. His cough is all the way gone. I am so thankful that he is doing so well. I believe that there was an angel watching him that day because I don't know what would happen if we weren't there at that moment. I love him to death and I couldn't imagine my life without him. I am looking forward to more happy and healthy days with him! He is going to be around for a long long long time!!!

A scary situation

Yesterday was a very scary day for us. Brody was having a fever off and on all day yesterday and I was trying to figure out why he was having a fever in the first place. I gave him medicine around 4 o clock last night and it did nothing to him but made him drowsy. He went for a nap after that and then was still feeling hot after that. Chris came home from work and I gave Brody a luke warm bath around 7 o clock because that is what you are suppose to do when they have a fever. We put him down for bed at 8 o clock and around 9 he woke up screaming like he was in pain, I have never heard this sound out of him before. He was burning up! We decided to take him to the ER and I am so thankful we did that. At first I wanted to take him to insta care but the one that was close to us was the one in Syracuse. I really didn't want to go back to the ER because I had such a bad experience before but this was necessary. We got there and they took his temperature and it was at 102.6 so his temperature went up a few degrees within minutes. They took us to a separte room so we could wait for the doctor to come in and they gave us a gown to put him in and when Chris was getting him undress what we saw frighten us and we will never forget it.

While Chris was getting him undressed Brody eyes started to roll into the back of his head and we didn't know what was going on. He stopped crying and everything. The nurse comes in and quickly takes him out of my arms and puts him in a different room and starts putting monitors on him. Since his temperature went up so quickly he went into Febrile Seizure, it doesn't mean he will have seizures the rest of his life it just happens to some children when their fever goes up quickly like that. It scared the hell out of me and Chris. There was nothing more that we could do except step back and let the doctors and nurses work on him. I felt so helpless at that moment. That has never happened to us before so we didn't know what to do or even what to think. They got him stabled and he started to breath and cry and that was a good sign. Even though it was only for a few minutes that he was having a seizure it felt like forever. They said while they have a seizure they don't know who we are and where they are at so when they are coming out of it they start crying again because they are confused. I am very thankful for all the doctors and nurses that worked on him, they were very generous and I couldn't asked for a better team.

They took his urine and blood and gave him an X ray to see all the possible options on why he was running such a high fever in the first place. His urine and blood came back normal and on his X ray they didn't see any infections but they saw a little bit of Bronchitis on his chest, nothing big, just a mild case of it. No wonder he has been coughing for the past few days, poor little guy, I couldn't imagine what he was going through last night. Overall he is doing well, his fever went down and he is a little bit wobbly from last night but he is doing good. He just has to stay on the medicine that they gave him for the next 4 days or until its gone to keep the fever down. I want to thank Trena for taking Rocky last night so we could concentrate on Brody. I also want to thank the doctors and nurses again for doing the best for my little guy. I am thankful for a lot of things right now in life!

Brody's 15 month check up

First of all I can't believe he is already 15 months old. He grew up too fast! Today was his 15 month check up. He is 23 pounds in the 30% and 30.25 inches long in the 26%. He is walking really well and I am very proud of him. He also got one shot! He seems to be doing very well with it. Next time it will be his 18 month check up and since Rocky will be 5 around that same time we are going to do their checkups the same day. We have never done it like that before so it will be a new experience for all of us.

DISNEY ON ICE!!!

We all went to Disney on Ice for the first time! We all had a wonderful time together. It was me, Chris, Rocky, Brody, my mom, Chris' mom, Trena, Shane, Aaron, Trena's mother in law and Sister in law. We got a good price for open night. Buy one ticket get one free. It was Mickey and Minnie and all their friends hosting the show of course and Little Mermaid, Cars, Tinkerbell, and The Lion King. The Lion King is my favorite Disney movie and The Cars is Rocky's favorite. The boys were so well behave and Brody was so into it. If you want to see more pictures look on my myspace profile or Facebook.

Rocky with his Lighten McQueen that he got at the show!

We went to Chuck a Rama to eat before we headed down there so all in all it was a great night with the family! I still want to know how they got the Cars to move on the Ice that was pretty impressive.