The Anniversary!

I thought today was going to be a good day. And I was going to shred my papers from what happened a year ago. I was looking forward to this day! But I was looking over my papers for the misdemeanor and I still have until September 30th for it to get off my record. I don't know why they post mark it for that date unless that is the day that I went into court. I really wanted to move on from this thing and have nothing tracing me back to it. I am just thankful that I don't have too much longer for it to get off my record. I am also thankful that nothing more happened. It could been a lot worst and I could of been in a lot more trouble. So I am very very thankful for that as well. I just know when the 30th of September comes I am going to be celebrating a lot more. I think I learned a lot about myself and I think I am still learning a lot about me as a parent. I went through a lot with all the classes and everything. September 30th is going to be a good day and be looking for a video because I am going to be posting a video of me shredding the papers. I don't want nothing to do with that day and want to move on from it and nothing to remind me about it. I feel like I have moved on from it emotional and mentally but I don't want any papers in my house reminding me of that awful day. I know that I am a good mom and that I am not a child abuser but the court system is screwed up. I learned that it's not innocent until you are proven guilty anymore. They always want to make you out to be the guilty one so they can get more money out of you. Either way you have to fork over money whether you like it or not. I stayed out of trouble all year and tried my best to control my anger but we are moms and parents and we all have bad days. I also learned that you can't discipline your kids in public anymore because people like to stick their noses in other people's business when it shouldn't be there in the first place. It's a sad sad world that we can't do that but it is what it is. I stay out of other people's business and I expect the same thing; but it isn't like that. And I wished more people did that. I just think people just try to create drama when it isn't there.  I never met those people that reported on me and I hope I never do. They probably don't even remember me because they were so caught up in their own drama. I don't even remember them either so maybe it's a good thing. I still think it's stupid that 7 people were sitting in the Kent's parking lot when they shouldn't of been there in the first place. The thing is that pissed me off is they didn't even know who I was. They judged me; someone they don't even know. I don't even know them and I would never do that. When I go shopping I get in do my shopping and come out to my car and leave. I don't sit there and cause trouble. Whatever their reason was that day I don't understand and I probably will never understand but that is ok. I am not them. I am me! And all I could do is be the best Jackie I can be! I still go to Kent's like nothing happened. I am a stronger person. I am ready to have this baby in October and be a better mom and learn more. I think having Daisy in October will be a new beginning for everything!

32 week update

I figure I would do an update as well in my pregnancy. There hasn't been one in a while. I am now 32 weeks. My doctor said everything looks good. My blood pressure looks good; my urine looks good; everything is good. I see him every two weeks now. He said that I am his easily patient. I have really good pregnancies so I feel truly blessed to say that. It is getting to the point of my pregnancy where I have a hard time sleeping. I am constantly moving around at night and I go up at least once in the middle of the night to go pee. I think Chris is having symphony pains for me because he is going to the bathroom in the middle of the night as well. I know he has been dealing with a kidney stone for a while so that could be the reason too. It seems like I don't get full anymore. I am constantly hungry which sucks. I am starting to waddle. Daisy is moving and kicking me all the time. It seems like I never have a break. Which is good because that just shows that she is doing good. I can't wait to see her and see what she looks like. I know her siblings are really excited to see her. I can't wait for her to complete our family.

To breastfeed or not to breastfeed that is the question

Every since me and my old co worker was talking about breastfeeding one day at work I have been debating back and forth whether or not to breastfeed Daisy. I thought going to this breastfeeding class today would help me decide but I think it got me questioning more. I know it's better for the baby and all the benefits but I just don't know if it's right for me. I didn't breastfeed with any of my other children and I kinda want a bond with this baby since it's my last baby. That is another reason why I don't know if I want to. I tried with Rocky and it was just frustrating. He didn't seem interest in it and we were both frustrated with it. So after him I decided that I didn't want to do it with my other kids because it just wasn't fun and enjoyable. I just don't want my kids to feel left out if I do breastfeed Daisy because I didn't with them. And plus my kids want to help out with feeding her and I feel like if I breastfeed her that they won't have that opportunity. I feel like breastfeeding is right for some women and not right for others. At least I can try right? I just don't know if I will be even be able to. With my body and plus with working. I can always pump. I just don't know if my baby is going to get enough if I breastfeed. I always had that question as well. It's easy to tell when they are drinking from a bottle. I just don't want my boobs to be in charge and always tell me that I have to feed my baby when I can't because I am at work. I want to also use formula but I know that isn't always good but I just have to do what is right for my baby I guess. Especially if I am going to be working or if the kids want to help. So many questions and decisions to make.

Sienna's 3rd year checkup

It went pretty well. She is a little diva for sure though. Wouldn't really let Dr. Nye touch her. No shots! The doctor is concerned about her eyes though because when she was looking at the light one of her eyes turned out. And she has been saying her eyes been hurting. I hope it isn't anything too serious. So he suggested a eye doctor that specializes in kids. But overall she looks good. She is exactly 3 feet tall for 3 years old. And we go back in a year.

Happy 3rd Birthday Sienna Bug!

Today Sienna bug is 3!

We had Elsa and Anna come to her party today. At first it took her a while to warm up. But once she did she was having a blast with them. We have a cute video of her hugging them when they got to the door! It is so adorable!! They did an excellent job!! I couldn't be  more happy about it.

They gave her a present

They played games with the kids

They read books to them

They even took pictures with the kids

So worth it! I loved every minute of it. But of course with a 3 year old's party it's always hectic and it started off rough. With Sienna stepping on her cake with her cowgirl boots and breaking her candle in the process but what can you do? I guess it's her birthday and she can do what she wants. You just have to laugh it off and shake it off. It's just a little girl's birthday party. She told me that she still loved her cake so that is all that matter; even after all that happened. She is very smart for her age and I can't believe she is already 3! I am excited and looking forward to her being a big sister. She is so excited for her baby sister to come into this world and I know she will be the best big sister ever!! Thank you to everyone that came you know who you are! It was just family!! I don't know a lot of people that would like to come to a princess party...lol. I love you Sienna Jeanne Harmon and I am glad that you enjoyed your birthday and loved every minute of it!

Rocky is 10!

My big guy is 10!

I can't believe my first born is 10! It's crazy to think! It went by too fast! I can't believe a decade with this sweet boy and more great years to come!!

Every year for his birthday we go to a movie because for some reason a new Avengers or Iron Man movie comes out around his birthday and he is so into those movies. So it's a tradition to go. So we went to see Avengers Age of Ultron on his birthday. We didn't bring Sienna because last time we brought Sienna to a movie it was a nightmare. I think she will act better if it's a movie that she is interest in. I don't think she would of liked Avengers very much. It was a fun time with me and the boys!

On Saturday he had his birthday party at our house and the balloon guy came. He was really good! His name is Jeff and I went to school with him. He has been doing this for many many years and you can so tell. He was so good with the kids. I would totally recommend him. He is really talented. Rocky had a blast at his party.

The cool cake

Rocky's cool dog

I really like this one. This is Elsa from Frozen.

He had all his family there and one of his friend's Isaac. It was nice to meet his friend Isaac. He seemed like a cool kid. I can't wait to see what Rocky does with his life. I am so proud of him! Now onto Sienna's birthday. Look for an update on that one as well!

We are having another baby girl!

Our pretty baby girl!

It's definitely a girl!!

Her foot!

Everyone meet Daisy Lynn Harmon! When we went into my appointment on the 4th I was really nervous. I wasn't keeping my hopes up because we all wanted another little girl so we could have two boys and two girls. A perfect mix! When the ultrasound tech asked me what we wanted we told her a little girl but we also told her that we would be happy with whatever just as long as the baby was healthy. The whole time she was looking at Daisy she kept standing on her head flipping over. She is going to be my gymnast. And then she told us that we are going to get our wish! I couldn't believe it! I almost cried!! I kinda had a feeling it was a girl because I truly believe she spoke to my father in law and told him what her name was. I believe souls can talk to you before they are even born. I believe we chose a perfect name for her because she talks to me as well. When I was pregnant with Sienna I had a dream about a little girl with dark hair and a lot of it so I thought I was dreaming about Sienna but when she was born that wasn't the girl that I was dreaming about. So I truly believe that I was dreaming about Daisy. And since I have been pregnant with her I haven't dreamt about her at all because maybe she is already here. I truly believe that our family is finally complete now that we have our two boys and two girls and I couldn't be more blessed. I love this little girl already and I think she is going to be a great addition to our family and I think she is going to get along great with her big sister! And I can't wait to see what she looks like!

My baby bump at 4 months (16 weeks)

My pregnancy is going really well! I get heartburn every now and then so I hope that means that she is going to have a lot of hair. The only time I really have heartburn is when I am eating chicken so I stay away from that as much as possible...lol. She moves a lot especially when I am laying in bed at night trying to relax for the day. I felt her move for the first time when I was 10 weeks along. I am hungry which seems like ALL the time and it's kinda annoying..lol. It's like I am never full. I haven't had really any particular cravings. Just whatever sounds good or whatever the baby wants at that time...lol. I am still working at Motherhood Maternity and it's going well. Good thing I don't work full time because I know I wouldn't be able to handle that. I am planning on going natural with this one as well. I am also planning on going as long as I can in my pregnancy and enjoying every minute of it especially since it's my last child. I want to have her on my birthday which is the 22th of October but that is technically going two days over my due date. I don't mind sharing a birthday with her but it all just depends. I don't know if I am getting my tubes tied because I am deathly afraid of surgery since I have never had surgery before and I am very iffy about that whole thing about tieing your tubes and getting snip snip but I guess we will see when it gets closer. I know Chris doesn't want to go through that but I think it would be for the best because it will be less painful for guys but we all know how guys are. They are little babies...haha!!

Video 1 of the gender reveal. I got confetti and glitter and put it in a balloon and had my kids pop it and whatever color came out is what baby we are having. The first video Sienna was trying to pop it and couldn't.

Video 2 of the gender reveal. So I got a different thing to pop it with and gave it to Sienna BIG MISTAKE and before I could have time to record her popping it she already popped it. Why Rocky doesn't look happy because he was mad at Sienna for ruining it. He was happy about the baby girl so don't worry...lol. So I had to just show the confetti and glitter on the ground and ask them what color it was. We can't wait to meet this little girl!