Final thoughts (I guess I got more to say)

I have so many people that support and love me and they know who I am and they love me for who I am. I am not going to change for anyone. We shouldn't have to change for anyone. People should love us for who we are and not try to change us. If they really loved us they wouldn't want us to change in the first place. I am who I am! And no one can change that. I love everyone's flaws and good. Everyone has their flaws; no one is perfect. We are all different for a reason. We all make mistakes and hopefully learn from them. If we were all the same than that would be boring. I think all my family and friends are beautiful inside and out even with their flaws. Yeah they do stuff that I am not going to agree with or I am not going to like but I am still going to support them because I love them. We all do things differently then each other and that is ok. That is what makes us unique. I know that I am not perfect and I don't try to be perfect by any means. I know that I have done stuff that I am not proud of and that don't like but that is life. We aren't going to do everything right or that people like but we always learn from it and we move on. People aren't suppose to like everything that we do but I know that I try to do my best in what I do everyday. We all should do our best and if that is our best than we have done something right and that is all that matters at the end of the day. I truly believe that we all learn something new everyday. I know that I am always leaning something new about myself and others and it makes me be a better person and a stronger person. I don't expect you guys to understand where I am coming from but I just want you guys to love me unconditionally like I do for you guys. I know I won't always understand where you guys are coming from but I am here listen and be here for you always. I just want to thank whoever read all of this. I know it was a lot but it has helped me to write it all down so I am not blowing up everywhere. I love you guys and always will and I will truly lucky to have each and every one of you in my life.

This is who I am ;)

Maybe that is why Chris married me. I am a mother to 3 beautiful children and wife to a wonderful husband that supports me in whatever I do. I know who I am and maybe that is all that matters. I think this is the most I ever wrote on my blog in a while. Maybe I should use it more often. That is what it's for to write all my feelings down. Both my sister and my husband told me that if they don't like me for who I am then forget about them and maybe I should take that to heart. I know I am blunt and maybe too blunt sometimes but I have learned in all my experiences that it's better to tell the truth than lie. I think lying causes more problems. I know the truth hurts sometimes but truth hurts. And maybe I need to take that saying to heart as well. But this is who I am. I am also a housemother, a friend, a sister, a daughter, an aunt, a niece, a cousin and a sales associate at Motherhood Maternity. All these things make me who I am. I try to be the best I can be and if that isn't enough that I don't know what is. I never worried about what people thought of me in the past and maybe that is what I need to continued doing. As long as we know who we are and what we stand for that should be all that matters. Who cares what others think of us? I know who I am and I know that I love my family and friends and are very thankful for what I have in life. I also thankful for everything that everyone does for me, I really am. Everyone in my life and everything that I have done in my life has made me who I am and I wouldn't change it for the world. I don't regret anything in life because everything is a learning experience. Every experience that I have had in my life has brought me to where I am at today. 

Just thoughts

Since it's Easter today I just got a lot of thoughts going through my head and also since I get in trouble for posting certain things on Facebook I decided to vent on here. And since I can because it's my own blog I got a lot to say. I know I shouldn't be worrying about this stuff but I am because they are family and I love them. It seems like a lot of family on Chris' side doesn't want anything to do with me and it hurts, just because I speak my mind and tell the truth. I don't think there is nothing wrong with speaking your mind and being truthful. It's sad when some of the family doesn't want to add me on Facebook and that hurts, and I don't know what to do about it. Like I said I shouldn't be worrying about it but I am. If I don't write this all down I might explode. If any of the family reads this because explain to me what I am doing wrong. The only reason why I go on Facebook in the first place is to connect with family and friends to show them what I am doing, how I am feeling and to see how they are doing. I feel like I get left out on a lot of things because I am not friends with certain family on Facebook. It's like I am the last person to know. Or I don't get invited to certain things because no one wants me there. Well I got news for you guys. I am family and I always will be! I always ask Chris why he wants to be with me when most of his family wants nothing to do with me. It's hard not to have this going in my head and maybe it is all in my head but that is how I feel. Please show me something different and maybe I won't feel this way. If there is anything I did then I am sorry. I know sorry doesn't solve everything but I hope for this it does.
       Another thing I am tired of waiting for things to happen. Chris was "suppose" to get promoted a while ago and doesn't seem like it's going to happen anytime soon. One of his supervisors is on maternity leave and there is only him and another supervisor so they kinda need him unless they hire someone new. We were going to wait to get pre approved for a house loan once he gets promoted but I don't know when that is going to happen so I just got to make things happen. I know changes are coming but they are taking a long time to get here. We grew out of this small two bedroom apartment a long time ago, it's time to move on to something bigger especially if we want to have another child. We had our vow renewal on St. Patrick Day and that was a start of changes but where are the changes? Some days I don't know what to do with myself. I keep telling myself I need to concentrate on my small family and not worry about the other family members but it's kinda hard when I am a loving person; well I try to be and I am thankful for everything that everyone does in the family and maybe I just have a weird way of showing it but I love all my friends and family and I just feel like no one wants nothing to do with me. :( I don't know how to shake this feeling.

Happy 10 years!!

Yesterday me and Chris celebrated 10 years together as a married couple. It was a wonderful time!! We did a lot of firsts. We spent the night in a hotel in Salt Lake which we never have and went to dinner at The Old Spaghetti Factory which was a first and we weren't disappointed at all. Then we went to The Gateway and shopped around. I got a wonderful girt from Chris. A wedding band that I have always wanted.

Isn't it beautiful!!

Then we went back to the hotel and just enjoyed each other's company the rest of the night. The next day we went to Dunkin Donuts where we never been before and then we went to City Creek to buy Sienna a Valentine's gift which she loves. And then we went to Valley Fair Mall, Toys R. Us to buy the boys ninja turtles stuff and Darth Vader for Brody and then we went to Fashion Place Mall where we never been to before and then to finish our weekend we went to California Pizza where we never been to before. It was a great relaxing time! 

Sienna's 18 month checkup and Brody's 5th birthday party!

Sienna did great at her checkup. Such a big girl already! She is in a big girl bed and everything. And then she gets her big girl carseat here soon. She is growing up so fast! She is 20 pounds 10 oz in 22% and she is 31.5 inches long in the 40%. She only got one shot and didn't cry at all. She is such a trooper. So proud of my little girl!!

Brody turned 5!! We had his birthday party at the Treehouse museum this year since we got a free membership from Brody's headstart so we thought we would take a advantage of it. And I am glad that we did because it was so much fun! There was so much do to and I was trying to take so many pictures.

Brody in his class on his actual birthday

He had a Star Wars theme and everything turned out great! All the people that came were Nana Heckert, Nana, Aunt Trena, Uncle Shane, Cousin Aaron, Aunt Jordan, Uncle Kevin, Cousins Landon, Karalina and Miranda, Aunt Johanna, Cousins Isaac and Avien, and Uncle Kenny. And of course us. I think everyone had fun!

The cool room that it was in

The Birthday Boy! King Brody!!

The cake!!

Thank you to everyone that came! Brody got some great presents and we are definitely going to be coming back before our membership expires. They were so nice to us and I would definitely recommend this place to everyone!

Halloween 2013 and Sienna's arm

Brody as the evil lizard from the amazing spiderman, me as Dorothy, Sienna as a injured kitty ,
Chris as Hulk and Rocky as spiderman 

We do the same thing every year. I wasn't going to post about this Halloween because we do the same thing every year but I had something to say. I think next year I am going to come more prepared. I want to go trick or treating around the neighbors more and we aren't able to do that when their buckets are so full. So I think I am going to bring extra bags so I can empty their buckets so they can be out longer. But we still had fun and the kids enjoyed themselves so that is all that matters. I hope everyone had a fun and safe Halloween.

Sienna broke her elbow the Sunday before Halloween but it worked well with her costume because we told everyone that she was an injured kitty and that the dog chocolate got her because she was wearing a lease dog so she wouldn't run away from us. She was on our bed with Rocky and was trying to get down and Rocky was helping her down and she slipped from his hands and fell. Rocky said that she hit her arm on the wall but when I went in to get her she was laying on her belly and her arm looked weird like it was all twisted. She is doing so well with it though. Acting herself (a big troublemaker) and still getting on beds. Like she hasn't learned her lesson. She got a lot of candy from people feeling sorry for her. She knew exactly what to do. She is such a trooper and such a smart little girl. I don't know what I am going to do with her...haha!!

Jackieology (Enjoy)

The -ologies.  Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name, followed by "ology".

***********FOODOLOGY***************
What is your salad dressing of choice? Ranch or Italian dressing

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Red Robin

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Rice for sure! That is why I would be prefect for Survivor

What are your pizza toppings of choice?  Pepperoni and olives

What do you like to put on your toast?  Peanut butter or just butter

***********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many televisions are in your house? 3

What color is your cell phone? Red with a black case

***************BIOLOGY******************
Are you right-handed or left-handed?  Right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Just wisdom teeth

What was the last heavy item you lifted? Probably the garbage

Have you ever been knocked unconscious? I don't think I have. I can't think of a time

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? No

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?  Never thought of this question. Probably not because my name makes me who I am

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? I don't know

************DUMBOLOGY******************
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?  3 I want more though

Last time you had a run-in with the cops? I don't think never  

Last person you talked to?  Brody my son

Last person you hugged? Brody

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************
Season? Fall

Holiday? Halloween and Christmas

Day of the week? I don't have a favorite day of the week. Everyday is the same to me

Month? October but its also my worse month

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************
Missing someone? Old friends

Mood?  Pretty good

What are you listening to? Nothing

Watching? Nothing

Worrying about?  Nothing at this moment

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************
First place you went this morning?  My kids' room

What's the last movie you saw? Probably one of the Twilight movies. They are always on tv and I can never get enough of them

Do you smile often? Yes

Sleeping Alone Tonight? Nope.

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************
Do you always answer your phone? Usually unless I am driving then no

Its four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it? Probably my mom

If you could change your eye color what would it be? Probably blue

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?  Cherry and Vanilla into my Dr. Pepper

Do you own a digital camera?  Yes

Do you have a pet fish?  Nope

Favorite Christmas song(s)? All the N sync Christmas songs on their Christmas CD

What's on your wish list for your birthday? A blowdryer and a kindle

Can you do push ups? Not very many

Can you do a chin up? Probably not

Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Depends

Do you have any saved texts? Just save conversations 

Ever been in a car wreck? Yeah who hasn't?

Do you have an accent?  No

What is the last song to make you cry?  Roar by Katy Perry. There is meaning behind it for me now

Plans tonight? Going to Kohl's after I finish this

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?  Sometimes

Name 3 things you bought yesterday.  Just candy and drinks

Have you ever been given roses?  Tons

Current worry?  If I am able to find matching shirts for my boys

Current hate right now? Not being able to find matching shirts for my boys

Met someone who changed your life?  Everyone that came into my life changed my life in one way

How will you bring in the New Year? Having a party at our house. Anyone is invited.

What song represents you? That is a good question

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? I don't think so. Everything I have done in life is a learning experience. I don't regret anything in life.

Do you have any tattoos/piercings? Two in both ears and I want to get a tattoo

Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now? Always. Married

Would you be a pirate? I wanted to on free doughnut day but that didn't happen. :(

What songs do you sing in the shower? Whatever I am listening to at that moment or whatever pops in my head haha!!

Ever had someone sing to you?  I don't think so

When did you last cry? I don't remember

Are you afraid of being alone? Yeah

Do you like to cuddle?  Yes.  

Have you held hands with anyone today?  Yes my hubby

Who was the last person you took a picture of? I think with my daughter

What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? I have no idea

Do you believe in staying close with your ex? Hell no

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?  Mostly new

Do you like pulpy orange juice?  No I don't. No pulp for me

What is something your friends make fun of you for?  I have no idea.