Changes are coming

After we had that scare a few months ago we realized that Chris' job isn't cutting it anymore especially since his company merged with another company. He now gets paid on the 10th and 25th of every month. That is scary because we are trying to figure out how and when to pay rent. We realized that we needed to make a change financially especially where we are the point where we have to decide between paying our rent and feeding our kids. It shouldn't have to be this way. Unless you have been in our shoes and you have to decide between those two then don't say anything negative. We want our kids to have better. We haven't even did anything this summer because we have been focusing on taking care of our bills and catching up. We don't have any extra money to do anything. Even though I am getting more hours at work it still isn't enough to pay rent so we have to depend on Chris' job which doesn't make enough. So Chris decided to go for his life insurance license. We need to make more. Today would be his second time taking the test; I just hope he pass because we need to do something. We both work hard and it never seems to be enough. Yeah our job as adults is taking care of our bills and not have the easy way out but I know a lot of people that don't see it that way and do have the easy way out. We don't want to be in this situation anymore, we don't want to be struggling this hard anymore. When you have to make a decision whether to have a place to live or food on the table then you have to make a change somewhere. We take care of our bills on our own but we don't have any extra money to do anything else. So hopefully later on today or tomorrow I will have good news. We just can't go on like this anymore!! We want to go on vacations and get a house and we feel like we can't do both unless Chris changes careers. We want to do better financially!

Sienna's 7th birthday party!

Sienna is very friendly and has a lot of friends. She is totally a girly girl! She is very smart and top of her class. When she was in Kindergarten she wanted to be a mermaid princess now she says that she wants to be a teacher. I don't think she really has a favorite food; I know that she isn't a big fan of pizza. The other people that came to her party was Aunt Jordan and her family, Nana Heckert, Uncle Justin, Aunt Johanna and her family, Aunt Trena. We love you C bug! We can't believe you are 7! You are so beautiful and going to go places in life! We are so proud of you!!

Her mermaid cake from Winco with Strawberry filling

I think this is was one of the best birthday parties that she has had. She had 4 of her friends that showed up and that is the most that she ever had go to a party. It was a mermaid swim party.

Sienna and her friend Sara

 

Sienna and her childhood friend Alana

Sienna and her friend Abby

She didn't get a picture with Hunter; he was busy playing with Brody. Boys! LOL! 

She had her first sleepover at home. She has been wanting this for a while and I am glad that we could make it happen. 

I am scared!

I think this is the first time in all of my life that I have been scared. I think I am finally ready to tell everyone what is going on. We need help. We can't do this on our own. We have so much to loose! Now we have 4 kids and pets to worry about and I am scared. My stomach is in knots and I haven't been eating a lot because I don't know what the future holds for my family. I don't know what's going to happen to us and hopefully by me reaching out to everyone we can find the help we need. We are so tempted to file bankruptcy because we don't know what our next steps are. We are late on our rent; we haven't paid for May. It's not that we don't want to we just can't. We had a good system going where we put a 100 dollars towards rent every payday so by the time rent was due we didn't have a lot to pay. We knew when we moved in here that we weren't able to afford it but we knew that we could make it work. We did our research and trust me we couldn't find any place cheaper. We had a rough month in April and got behind and couldn't pay rent for May. So they sent it to their lawyers. We were thinking that we could work out something with them but now they want 907 dollars a week which we can't do. I don't even get that a payday. If we can't do it and we can't come up with the first 907 by the 24th then we have to think about leaving. We only been here for 6 months I really don't want to pack up my family again and move. That is a lot of hard work! I just don't know what to do anymore; I feel lost and scared!! I don't know who to reach out to. I see all these people on FB post about raising money and they get people to donate money all the time but when it comes to me it's like shit on me. It hurts; it really does and it seems like we can't relie on anyone anymore. Please if anyone can help us or come up with a solution I would love to hear it. I just don't know what to do anymore.

Brody is 10!

Now I have tow kids in the double digits. These kids are growing up too fast! He is now out of his car seat and now has a phone. What are we going to do with him? LOL! What to say about Brody? He is our comedian but sometimes goes too far. I think he tries too hard to impress people when he doesn't have to. I believe he is great just being him! I don't think he quite understands that yet. He reminds me so much of my brother it's not even funny. I think it's better that he now has his own room so he can be by himself when he wants to and he doesn't have to answer his door if he doesn't want to. I am proud of how much he has grown in this past year. He still has more to learn!

 He had a Five nights at Freddy's theme. I don't know why kids like this game

We were going to have some of his party at Flynn retrocade in Roy on Saturday but they were booked that day and they only have two available slots. One in the morning and one at night and no one wants to go to a party at 10 at night. I felt bad that we didn't have a big party for his 10th but I think buying him the phone made up for it. 

Another year has passed and I am glad that this is going to be his last party. Not a lot of people came and I think because it's right before Christmas. I think it's hard to have a birthday party around the holidays. I felt bad for him because none of his friends came. And I was kinda disappointed. I hope that he had a good birthday. Only my family came so I guess that is better than nothing but I am glad that we decided no more parties for this guy. I think he felt left out and I still think he feels that way. He wants to go spend his Target gift card today and I think that will be a good idea and maybe make him feel better about things. Even though I don't think he deserve going to Target because now that he is 10 it seems like his attitude has gotten worst and I don't think the phone is helping. I love you bud just the way you are!! Don't change for anyone!!

Happy 3rd birthday to Daisy Lynn!!

My baby girl is 3!

Where did the time go? I can't believe she is 3!! She is so smart for her age. She talks so much!! She is potty trained. She loves kitties, babies, unicorns and barbies. She is so sweet! Watch was you say or do because she is very observant. We love our little Daisy Lynn. She may be small but her personality is big!!

SISTERS!!

We had her party at Dark Prime Collectibles across the street from us. Chris' buddy owns it. And it worked out really well. Food and games!!

The guests that came was Nana, Nana Heckert, Aunt Jordan and her kids, Aunt Johanna and her kids, Aunt Sadeez and Uncle Ricky and Uncle Justin and of course us. And Jason and his wife's daughter Crystal. Everyone had a blast!!

It was a unicorn/princess theme. I loved the cake from Kent's!

Her loot! She got some great stuff. An awesome jacket as well!

Sienna's 6th birthday party

My pretty girl is 6! Isn't she a beauty!!

This girl loves the color pink and purple. She loves Minnie mouse and barbies. She is really smart and has a great memory. She is such a sweetheart that everyone loves her. When she grows up she wants to be Mermaid Princess. She thinks she is Princess and she pretty much is lol. She loves everyone especially her baby sister. 

Her on her party today

We had pin the tail on the donkey

Yard size bowling

She had a Minnie theme

Her cake from Smith's Marketplace

She also had a pool party

She also had a pinata

I want to thank my in laws for hosting this party! The kids had a blast. So successful! My sister Johanna and her two kids came, my mom, Uncle Justin, Aunt Trena and her family of course. And her friends Hunter and Alana. 

I am just sick and tired of my job

I am having a hard getting a new job. I apply at one or two jobs a week. I am tired of picking up everyone's slack at work. I am tired of her not hiring anyone else and being comfortable with how things are going there. I am tired of her not changing my schedule around even when I request a day off. She keeps everyone on the same schedule and never changes it around. You can't even call in because you don't have anyone to cover your shift. I would love to work more on the weekdays than the weekends. Maybe I won't have to have a job much longer because Chris got a raise at work and he is doing really well there that he might become a lead because he is so good at what he does. I just wish I can find a job that appreciates my hard work. I am just tired of it all and I just hope it changes around soon. I am sorry but you can't have a set schedule when you work retail; it is just impossible. I just try to avoid my boss at all cost because I really don't want to see her. I am so glad that she is gone by the time I come into work all the time. Everyone please pray that I won't be at my job very much longer. In a couple of months it will be my one year anniversary. Maybe I should just wait until then and then quit. I just don't know how much I can take though.