Merry Christmas!

We started out Christmas this year on Christmas eve. We went to my mom's on Christmas eve to open presents there. My dad sent presents to her house since we were all there and it actually got there on time. It was a good time with family. We had dinner and opened presents. We didn't have a lot of money this year so I just found some things around the house that I haven't used and that I probably won't used and wrapped it for my sisters and my mom. Its the thought that counts, they loved their presents so that is all that matters. On Christmas morning we opened presents at our house and we decided on 3 gifts each for the boys and for each other. One big one and 2 small ones. Our big gifts were on a budget of 50 dollars. The boys had a really good Christmas and so did me and Chris so it worked out perfectly. Then after we opened gifts at home we went to Chris' mom and dad's and had breakfast and opened gifts there and then went home and Chris' uncle Kenny came over and we opened more. Then we went back to their house and had dinner so its been a busy day! So we got plenty of gifts this year. All I have been doing all day is rearranging rooms and putting toys away so its been a long day. I love the Christmas holiday time to spend with family and friends. Tuesday we went to our friends Brandy and Chris Greene house to open gifts there. Thanks to all that gave us presents and I hope everyone loved their presents from us. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas!!

Rocky's Presents

Brody's Presents

Note: They had a lot more but I didn't take a picture of them because I was busy unwrapping presents and putting them away! LOL!!

Brody is now 1!!!

I can't believe Brody is already 1. I had him a year ago today at 2:13 pm and he weighed 6 lbs 14 oz. and 19 inches long. Even though he weighed less then Rocky he sure is the opposite of Rocky. He is a big boy and he lets everyone know. He loves people food, he has every since he started eating baby food. He is my big eater, defiantly not what Rocky is. He is such a happy baby and a friendly baby, he will go to anyone that is willing to hold him. He loves his brother very much so, they play all the time and his brother loves him very much.
I went all natural with him, no medicine and I wouldn't want to go any other way. Maybe that is why he grew up too fast. I had an epidural with Rocky and I hated it. When I was getting off the epidural with Rocky I was shaking uncontrollably and I didn't like that feeling, plus when they give you one they put a big tape on your back to keep it in and that tape took forever to get off. So after that I was determined to go natural and I loved it. Plus, the recovery time is a lot faster when you go natural. I have to say the natural is AMAZING, its like an adrandine rush, I think everyone can go natural you just have to concentrate on your breathing and be calm and not freak out and you can do it. The pain isn't that bad and once you have that baby in your arms you forget about the pain and you realized that it was so worth it. I was in labor with him for 6 hours and Chris, his mom, and my mom were the only ones in the room. He is a fast learner, not what Rocky was. Brody crawled at a early age (7 months) and when he learns something new its like he has been doing it all along because he doesn't even think about it. He is such a big boy and I am very proud to have him in our family. Brody brings so much joy in all of our lives that we couldn't imagine out lives without him.

Time to give thanks!

This year we had thanksgiving at our house. The first year we ever had it at our house. We promised each other when we get our own place that we will have thanksgiving over there. I have to say that cooking all that food makes you so exhausted. I was up since 7 that morning cooking and nonstop from there because you have to clean up the mess after everyone is gone and everything. My mom, my brother Justin, Chris parents, my sister Jordan and her family, my sister Johanna and her family and us of course all came. It was kinda a pot luck because my mom brought a pie, Johanna brought drinks and Jordan brought cranberries. Brody for sure knew what thanksgiving was all about, he literally stuffed himself. Next year is someone else turn. But it went really well at our house. I was quite surprised how great it went. It was my first time cooking Turkey and I did an awesome job! I am so proud of myself that I went through on it. I just wanted it at our house with everyone together because my family is usually spread out on Thanksgiving and plus since I lost some family members this year that family now means more to me than anything and I want to keep them close as long as I can. I for sure don't take family for granted anymore.
Sorry for the absence, things have been rough lately. Comcast screwed up our bill and shut off everything; phone, internet, and cable so we have been living without that stuff for two weeks. Its been rough, I for sure don't take anything for granted anymore. So we are for sure not going to go back to Comcast. To make a long story short they charged us for a month that we were even living on our own at the time so they screwed up on that one. Thanks to family, because they have been so helpful throughout this whole thing, especially chris's parents. They have been letting us use their phone, internet, and tv so I know I am very grateful for them. I can't forget Trena either because she has been coming over and letting us use her cell phone and I couldn't thank her enough. Hopefully things get better for us, I know the year is going to end in a rough notes but once the holidays are over I believe that we will get our feet back on the ground once again. That is what taxes are all about! Plus I am waiting on this job to get back to me on a Production of Graphic Design and it would be so perfect for me. My dad sent me the listing and I sent him my resume and just waiting for a respond back and its killing me. It would help us out so much because it would pay 10 to 11 dollars an hour. So I am been praying almost everyday and keeping my faith in God and anything is possible with him. That is all I can do right now since we are going through this. I also want to thank all our friends for staying by our side and supporting us and comforting us, I don't know how I would of made it through without them either. My friends keep me sane. I also want to thank them for coming over all the time to just see how we are doing or just to hang out, that met a lot to me.

THIS IS WHAT I AM THANKFUL FOR THIS YEAR:

1. A house over our heads
2. Our health
3. My children
4. Being able to afford Christmas for my boys
5. The food in our bellies
6. The clothes our are backs
7. Family and friends
8. Most importantly God, without him I wouldn't be able to make it through the day
9. I also thankful that Chris still has a job, not a lot of people can say that

On a good note, I just couldn't keep this in any longer after I heard the news. I am going to be an AUNT again! My sister Johanna is pregnant again. She has a 6 year old son and I am so thrilled for him. He was wanting a sibling for so long! So maybe in a way God has answered my prayers in a way because now I can concentrate on that instead of us for a while. When I heard the news I was jumping up and down literally. Children are such a blessing from God!
I will keep you guys all updated on how we are doing and if I hear from that job. I hope I get it, but now its all in God's hands because I did all that I could for the time being.

A greek orthodox baptism

Yesterday me and the boys went to our very first Greek Orthodox Baptism. It was a really interesting and a new experience for us. We went to support my friend's daughter who was getting baptized. There was a lot of people there to support her. I felt like a fish out of water because I didn't know what to do. I was watching everyone and looking at their body expression to see what to do next...LOL! I had no idea what they were doing because we were seated in the back and I also had no idea what they were saying. I have to say it was the longest baptism I ever been to. After the baptism they had a luncheon and it seem like forever that we were able to eat and I was starving. You can tell that a lot of people loved her and was there to support her, it was also Susie's birthday (the girl getting baptized) so it was a special event. One of my favorite parts was the food of course, I love Greek food. I am just glad that the boys were good and enjoy the music. One of the things I realized that all the Greek girls are not that good looking and you can tell who is Greek and who isn't lol. Oh another thing everyone got a gift so I thought that was pretty cool. I never been to a baptism where we got something. It was a cute vase thing that had two angels on it. Its the prettiest thing I have ever seen. Now we will always remember that we went to a Greek Orthodox Baptism.

My favorite time of the year-HALLOWEEN!!!

Our family picture for Halloween 2009.

Me as a 49ers Cheerleader. Everyone was giving me crap saying I was a Redskin Cheerleader. Come on I am 49ers fan! My mom made me the costume and I think she did an excellent job!
Chris as 49ers football player!


Rocky as Bumblebee Transfomer! He loves transformers
And Brody as the cutest Football ever!

We had an awesome Halloween together as a family. Chris was off so it was great to be all together. This year was the first year we went to the mall and I have to say we are going to go back because they give you a butt load of candy. Then we went to the old folks home like every year. Rocky likes going there and going to each person and getting candy but they did it a little bit different this year so it was kinda disappointing. Instead of having us go inside they had table outside in the front and we just were able to pick candy up from the tables. I think the reason why they did that because of the swine flu and to be careful about not getting the seniors sick. Then we went to trunk and treat. Whatever happen to the tradition. I always loved going door to door with my friends and trying to get the most candy. I hate trunk or treat and Rocky was kind iffy about that. Come on going trick or treat to each trunk is kinda strange to me. Now that Halloween is over onto Thanksgiving. This year has come by too fast. I can't believe that Brody will be 1 next month, it seemed like I just had him. He grew up too fast, faster than what Rocky did that is for sure. We are thinking about having Thanksgiving at our house this year since we got our own place but I am still debating about that one. So overall this Halloween was awesome. I am so glad Rocky is at the age where he enjoys Halloween a lot more and he can also pick out his own costume!

Happy Birthday to Me!!!!

Today is my 25th birthday! At first I was kinda bitter because that means I am half way to 50 and I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know if its a midlife crisis or something but I am at the point where I want to figure out what I really want in my life. Its been a good day so far, I had breakfast in bed and later on tonight we are going to have a potluck with all our friends and family. Well not all of our friends but the ones that really care. I realized something while planning for this potluck. The thing that I realized is that who are really my good friends. Don't you hate it when you plan an event and no one responds? Even when you try to call them or write them and you get that feeling that you are getting ignored. That is how I was feeling yesterday. Every time I would call one of my girlfriends no one would answer. Its kinda weird that no one would answer their phone. I was getting really frustrated and was wondering why I even try. It reminded me of two events that happened in my life. The first one was my 13th birthday I think, my first birthday at our apartment in Layton. My mom was feeling bad because the birthday before I didn't really have a birthday because we just moved from Ogden to Layton and she wanted me to have a great birthday that year so she got a hold of all my friends to throw a party for me. I remember sitting out in the front of the apartments waiting for people to show up and no one came. I really felt horrible and my mom felt so bad for me. Another event was my baby shower I invited my friends and none of them showed up. It was just my family. You think by now I would learned my lesson. Well let me tell you I have learned my lesson now. Now I know who to invite and who to not. My family mean the world to me and they will always be there for me and I thank them for that. My close friends also mean the world to me and they know who they are, because they are there for me also. When I married Chris I kinda gained his friends and that makes me feel good inside because they are really nice to me and they are always there for me. I think also since they are older they are more mature so they don't deal with drama and that is what I like. So tonight I am going to have fun with the people that really matter in life and forget the other people that don't matter.

FUN FACTS ABOUT ME ;)

1. I got baptized on Halloween when I was 8
2. Me and my sister Johanna's birthdays are 3 years and a week apart
3. We always shared our birthdays because my mom thought that would be easier
4. I always had a Halloween cake for my birthday and we still keep that tradition today
5. My favorite colors have always been my favorite colors ever since I was little
6. I went all natural with my second child because I hated the effect of the epidural with my first son and I would not go any other way
7. My hobbies include reading, scrapbooking, and now cross stitching those are my passions in
life
8. I was in resource when I was in elementary school and I thought it was the best life experience I ever had
9. I like all different kinds of music; from Mandy Moore to Def Leppard
10. My next child I am planning on going all natural again
11. My family and my close friends mean everything to me!

Venting....I hate how some people get things handed down to them and more.....

Blogs are about expressing your feelings about something and venting right? Well I like coming here just to vent. I really need to get this off my chest or its just going to build up inside. I really hate how this world operates. Let me get into more details. It seems like the people that don't work their hardest on things get things handed down to them and that bugs the crap out of me. For example lately I've been seeing these people going on vacations left and right and I am wondering how in the world they are paying for it especially what is going on in the economy right now. One of my friends told me that they have been probably saving up for this and that for months and I find that hard to believe, I don't know why I just do. Me and Chris haven't been on a vacation since our honeymoon and I keep wondering when is our chance. We work our butts off to survive in this world and we don't get anything. Don't we deserve something for a change? I had a chance to win a cruise but there are some catches. I took this survey on the phone a while ago and they told me that they will have a Representative called me and let me know more details. They called me today and the catches are that we have to pay the Poor Taxes and that is 59 dollars per person and we have to find our own way to the boat in Ford Laundard . Chris doesn't think we would be able to afford that. I think personally that its a better deal then what is usually running for a cruise. The manager told me that if he doesn't hear from me by Friday that they have to give the free cruise to the next person well its totally understandable to me. I just wanted to cry because here I have a chance to go on a cruise that I won and I can't even go. Well I have come to the realization that we are never going to go on a vacation or a cruise of any type unless someone pays it for us or we win the lottery.


Don't get me wrong I am proud to say that we work hard to where we are at now. I just wish that some things were better in life and that when we are going to get a chance to get the things we want in life. I am blessed to say that Chris still has a job that he loves and that its going really good for him, not a lot of people can say that now a days so how are they going on a vacation. Answer that for me? I am blessed to say that we have a roof over our heads, food in our bellies, and we are healthy. But I want more. Is that a bad thing? I am proud to say that we don't have to totally relied on other people to survive in this world, we do most of the things are on our own but why do those people get favored?


I hope I didn't offend anyone by this post but if I did then I am sorry. I feel like I am titled to my opinion because its a free world. Maybe after writing this and having it down where I can always read it will make me not to be bitter anymore.

Great News!!!

Brody redness is gone! And he seems a lot happier. I think it was really bugging him. Next time that happens I will know how to treat it so there wouldn't be a reason to go to the hospital.

This is a picture of him being a big boy. It was taken a while ago. I just really like this picture of him. Even though I still think ER doctors are stupid he still knew how to treat his yeast infection. I am still going to go to his pediatrician whenever I think something is wrong with Brody or Rocky and if he isn't available then I am going to go to another one. Thanks everyone for the concern!

Some doctors are stupid!

There is a reason why I don't take me or any of my kids to the ER at the hospital. 1. They always me tell what I already know 2. Its a waste of my time 3. Its pointless. 4. And another reason is I don't want to pay for something when its just take a second to figure out what is wrong that I already know. Today I took Brody into the ER because his private parts were all red even the little hole. He would always scream when I am touching it and when he has a bowel movement its looks like he can't go pee. It didn't look like a diaper rash its just looked like there was something else going on. So I took him in and the doctor barely touched him, like he was the plague of death. All he did was touch his pee pee and determined that it looked like that it was red because of trauma. What the fuck does that mean? Does it mean that he hurt it somehow, I find that hard to believe. He also said that it also looks like a little bit of dasher rash. DUH? If it was that I wouldn't of took him in. What a joke, I am so disappointed right now its not even funny. Oh yeah by the way while he was touching it, it started to bleed, wouldn't you think something else was wrong because of that. So he just gave me a prescription for a special ointment and that was it. I swear I am not going into the hospital or taking my kids in there until one of us is dying.

All settled in!

We are now all settled into our new home and we love it. Things are going great for us! We love the room and its a lot bigger than our old apartment for sure. I love how we have a washer and dryer now and a dishwasher and everything. And the kids are adjusting very nicely, I think they like having their own room. I for sure is thrilled to have my own bathroom. Since we moved into our new house I've been thinking about a lot of things and I realized that I need to reevaluate my life and figure out what I really want. I need to change a few things in my life to feel a lot better. I started crossed sticking and I am starting to really like it. My first project is an birth announcement for Brody and I have to say I am doing really good with it. And its also making me relaxed a lot and I am liking that. My friend Teala made one for Rocky and I thought I would make one for Brody. The reason why I got my first project is because I am sick and tired of the same thing everyday. Tv is getting boring and so is internet and nothing is going to change until I change it. I also found a new love putting the ties on blankets. I don't know what that is called but during a bridal shower I did it for the first time and I loved it. I just need to think of other things to do with my time other than just sitting around doing nothing. And speaking of friends that is another reason why I need a change. I've been trying to hang out with my old friends that I usually hang out with I think I need to start hanging out with the friends that I blow off. I need something new and someone new to hang out with. I don't know, I just think moving into our own place and adjusting to a new change got me wanting to change a lot of things in my life. I also have to figure out what I want to do with a career. Every since I left toys r us I have been having issues about trying to find a job because I am afraid of not finding something that I love. I loved working at Toys R us and I was mad about how it turned out. I was really good at what I did and enjoyed everyone I worked with and the memories. I was going to stay there a lot longer but shit happens. Right? I don't want to just settle, I want to find something that I really want to do and that I know that I am going to love, I just don't know what that is right now and that is something I need to figure out also. I think me reevaluate my life is going to be a huge change and a good thing. I am excited for this. I am excited for more happy things to come into our lives.

Update!

Sorry for the absence. Nothing really new has been happening around here. We are still in my in laws house but not for long. I have to say I am so ready to get out and get into our own place again. This summer is almost over and I have to say in a way I am glad its over but in another way I am not. It just went by too fast. So I have to say its been a long summer both my grandparents past away this summer and a few weeks ago my aunt passed away from Terminal Cancer. I have to say with all these deaths it made me think about my brother a lot. He passed away over 10 years ago from a car accident. I miss him more these days. With all these deaths I haven't had time to really grieve so maybe it will finally hit me when we get into our own trailer, maybe it won't we just have to see.

Now onto a happy note! Brody got his first tooth!!! It broke through a couple of nights ago. He isn't really cranky just mostly at night. But he is so proud of it. He is growing up too fast before we know it his first birthday is going to be here and that is something I just don't want to think about. It seems like just yesterday I had him. Apparently my children get their teeth late because Rocky was around this age also when he got his first tooth. I always say better late then never right.

I guess Rocky isn't going to Headstart. He is on the waiting list. I had to find out from calling them that we are 130% above the poverty line and they filled up the classes first with kids that are 100% below the poverty line whatever that means. It makes me so sad for him because he was so excited to start school, I just hope that he isn't behind. It also makes me sad because all his family and friends are going to be in school this year and he isn't. I guess we just have to wait and see. But I have come to the conclusion that he isn't going this year unless a miracle happens.

Other than that this is all that is really happening. All I have to say is I just can't wait until Tuesday comes. More moving to happen and I am not looking forward to that but I looking forward to the result. Well we aren't owning the trailer but we are renting but its still a big step for us. The whole time that we have been married we have lived in apartments and we are just ready to move forward and I am so glad. Its going to be a permanent move for a while and I am so thrilled I can barely contain myself. Its basically ours and I couldn't be more proud of ourselves.

Things are changing

I decided to update this since I haven't in a while. Things have been quite busy in our household lately. I haven't had a chance to sit down and relax. The weekend before the 24th me and Rocky got sick with the 24 hour stomach flu and that was draining, I have to say. Good thing it was only 24 hours and Brody didn't get it. I am glad that we got over it, the only thing I have is a cold that I am trying to get over. All I have left is a cough that seems to not want to go away. Lately we have been looking at trailers and we have good news we are moving! Last Thursday we turned the papers in and got approved Monday. All we have to do now is pay the deposit and we are going to do that the 6th and since we won't be able to pay the first month's rent until September we have to stay with Chris' parents for a month. I really don't like the idea of that but we have no choice if we want to save on money. Its seems to good to be true for me because we have been let down so many times but its happening I think way too fast though. Because the day after we turned in the papers my grandpa died, it was really hard on me. I didn't think I was going to react the way I did but I guess when you lose two grandparents within two months of each other its kinda hard. Sorry to say but I don't think its going to end there because my aunt isn't doing too well. She has terminal cancer and she has cancer cells all over brain where they can't get it. Its make me sad to see her suffer like that because she looks so weak. The only good thing about this is that I know that they aren't alone anymore and they aren't suffering but its still hard. Yesterday I went to my grandparents house and it was so weird being there without either one of them because I have never been there without them. I was so expecting to walk in and see my grandpa sitting in his chair relaxing. So right now we are packing and getting ready to move and I just don't know how to slow down because things aren't going to slow down anytime soon. I want to thank everyone that supported us and had faith in us. Its just time for a change in location because I feel like so many things are changing right now that we just have to go with the flow and go with the change. I don't know if I am ready for change but ready or not here it comes!

Our recent fishing trip since 2006

I've been wanting to go fishing for a while now and when I finally got my fishing license I was so excited. We haven't been fishing since our camping trip in 2006 so it was a while since I went last and it took me a little bit to freshen up my memory of how to use the rod but I got a hang of it. Chris' dad took me and Rocky out today and this was practically the first time Rocky ever held a fishing rod on his own and he did so well. He is a natural born fisher just like his mommy! We didn't catch anything but we did see a big fish and I was so anxious to get that thing but I guess he just wasn't hungry. We are for sure going to go out more this summer. I feel its fair, Chris goes golfing with his dad now its my turn to have quality time with him and go fishing. Even though we didn't catch anything we still had a blast, Rocky was just so excited to be helping out on fishing.

Brody's 1st 4th of July

The 4th of July for us was pretty good. It was much better than last year's that was for sure. I was so determined this year to have a great 4th. Last year all I did was sit on my butt at Chris' parents house and did nothing. Nobody wanted to do anything last year. I didn't have the car last year because I worked in the morning and Chris had to take the car for work. So this year I told Chris I was for sure going to take the car so I wouldn't be stuck anywhere. Speaking of Chris he had to work again this year. I don't remember us having a whole 4th of July as a family in a long time. His Store Manager always has it off every year but Chris promised me that next year he will request it off so I am looking forward to that. I just wished that the day yesterday was longer to do more stuff. The day started off good because I was finally able to go to the parade with my children. The past few years I had to work during the parade so this year was really special, not only was it Brody's first but also because I got to spend the whole day with my kids. This year was a realization that the 4th is mostly for the children. As long as they are having fun that is all that matters and when they have fun I have fun. We didn't go to any parks because I didn't have money and plus we tried to go to the Kaysville park because their blow up things were free but when we got there they were closed until 5 and we weren't going to go back because we had to be at a bbq and I had to pick up Chris around that time. Chris and I did spend a little time together, we had lunch together at his work so that was nice. I spent a lot of time with my sister Johanna and I liked that because we don't get to spend a lot of time together. We went over to our grandpa's to pick up my mom and I think that was the last time I will ever get to see my grandpa alive so it was pretty sad. He doesn't look too good, he lost a lot of weight and you can just tell that he isn't going to live very much longer. So it was nice to see him on the 4th. The best part was the fireworks of course because that is when me and Chris can spend more time together, I just wished that we would of saw store bought fireworks but that is ok. Overall the day was good, I was so exhausted by the end of the day, even the kids were pooped out. The cute part of the day was that Brody was just in awe with the fireworks in the sky, he would not pull his eyes away from the sky for a minute. I am just thankful that my kids had a blast.

The boys' first Raptor's game and The Guardian

Yesterday I went to my first Raptor's game and it was awesome! Even though we only had General Admission seats it was perfect. We got a little bit of rain when we first got there but it felt good. I rather of had General Admission seats anyday. And the boys were great also. Both Chris and our nephew Aaron got a ball so that was nice. I just wished we had it sign because that would of been a great thing to have. It was a wonderful time with the family, I couldn't of asked for a better night. Brody enjoyed it but I think it was the fact that we were outside the whole time, he is such a outdoor baby. And then when we got home we had our friend Luke come over and he brought over The Guardian. He just came back from The Marines for good and I am glad for him to be home. The Guardian was a great movie, I never have been into a movie as much as I was into this movie. It was so intense that I was literally off my seat the whole time. I would recommend this movie to anyone. So all and all yesterday was a great day for the whole family.

A recent picture of Brody-June 19th 2009

A recent picture of Rocky-June 19th 2009