What I have decided

This vacation made me think about a lot of things. While I was on vacation my store manager kept texting everyone in a group text about the schedule and things like that. I am so over it by this time. My resume looks really sad right now and I am trying to fix that. Especially since two of the places I have worked at are no longer around and another one goes by a different name. I think I lost my passion for my job. When I first started Motherhood in 2013 I was so excited to be working with great people and especially one of my good friends that I have known a long time ago. When everyone was leaving it was slowly but surely changing. And then leaving Motherhood and coming back kinda drained me. I am tired of the other stores not being fully staffed and relying on our girls to cover shifts. I don't think it's worth it in my opinion to only get 50 dollars for one trip to a different store. I think when I came back under a different position and then when Macy's closed really killed my spirits. I don't really care anymore. Don't get me wrong I am glad that Chris found a job that he loves that is perfect for our family but I feel like he is moving on and I am just stuck. It hurts me that he succeeding and I am not. I have been dealing with this feeling for a while now. Me and Chris decided that if there comes an opportunity to move to St. George we would take it. We always wanted to move there since we first got together. We just fell in love with the town. So now that I will have a set schedule I think it will be easier for me to find a job. I hope so. But this time I am going to do it differently. I am going to stay at Motherhood and deal with it until I find a new job. I hope I find something soon. I am just scared to leave a place where I am so comfortable with and everything. But I can't be scared anymore. I have to venture out. I have to try something new and get out of my comfort zone. Wish me luck! I just need to move on!!