Rocky my oldest is 5 today!

I can't believe my oldest is 5. Where did the time go? He was born 5 years ago at 1:42 am weighing exactly 7 pounds even and 20 inches long. I went into labor on my own because we were moving at the time and going up and down the stairs was making me go in labor. I wasn't dilating so I had to get induced when I got to the hospital. I wish I went natural with him but usually with your first one you don't because you don't know what to expect. I was dilated to a 6 before I got the epidural and I think I could of went all the way without it. I was in labor for 6 hours also. I guess I have my children fast.
He is going to start Kindergarten this fall and I couldn't be more proud. He loves his brother and is always helping out with him and around the house. His favorite color is green and he loves cars. He is a little sassy boy but I wouldn't want it any other way. He is really smart and he knows it. I think when he grows up he is either going to work at a car lot or be a NASCAR racer because he loves watching NASCAR, I don't know why. He is such a great big brother and I couldn't imagine my life without him. He also loves his little cousin Aaron, they are such best friends. I am looking forward to the future with him and what a great man he is going to turn out to be.

In Memory of John Vasquez

In Memory of John C. Vasquez Jr. Sept. 4, 1977-May 6 1995

You don't realized how precious they are until their gone and then its too late for hugs and kisses and saying you are sorry. Valuing your family is more precious than silver and gold. Silver and gold will never love you back. We will always miss you! We love you so much John. I looked up to John when I was growing up, to me he was the smartest teenage out there. You will always be in our hearts in spirit. I know you are looking over us! We don't have any pictures of John when he was a teenager, all we have his memories in our hearts.

What has been happening lately

Ok lately I have been feeling down lately. I feel like I ruined my chance to get that Data Entry job. I don't know exactly what happened but all I know is I am confused and I don't know how to change it. Some of you are going to say I told you so but I don't want to hear that right now. I guess in some ways no one knows what I am going through. It was a hard decision for me to make and a lot of people are probably saying it was easy, maybe for you but for me it was really hard. First of all I have been out of a job for a year and it would of been weird for me to go back all that time. Second I have never done anything like that so it would of been a new experience for me and third I wasn't too sure about the circumstances the lady was under and it scared me. All I know is I kept asking her questions via e-mail to learn more about the job because we all know that its good to ask as much questions as you need to get the answers and then after that she sent me an e-mail telling me that she still is in the interview process and she probably won't make a decision until next week, that was over two weeks ago and I still haven't heard back from her. I tried to e-mail asking her if she has made a decision and she never responded back and that was almost a week ago. To me it sounded like I already had the job I just had to think about it and get back to her so I am really confused. A lot of you are also probably thinking is it worth it to look for a job and go through all of this. And I am beginning to think about that myself.


It would be just easy to say just to give up and stop looking but if I do that then things won't change in our household. We really want to go on vacation and the only way we can do that is if I get a job and put money away every month to save up for it. Right now we can't save any money for anything, all our paychecks go to bills and we rarely have money left over to do anything else. We also want to take the boys to the zoo and things like that and we can't afford that right now. A lot of you are probably saying those things don't cost that much but where you are in a tight budget like we are we just don't have the money for that. The last time we went on vacation I think it was me and Chris' honeymoon, I am not sure of that though. I just don't remember that is the thing. Lately Chris' hours have been cut because what his boss says is that he isn't being a good manager so in a way its to punish him. In a way it has worked because it was like a wake up call for him and he is doing a lot better. I feel his old boss almost ruined his old attitude about the job because he blamed everything on Chris so hopefully this new boss does the opposite and tries to help him. And since his hours have been cut its been taking like 100 dollars off our checks and that money could make more of a difference. I am not trying to complain I am just being real and trying to explain to everyone how I feel.


The boys on the other hand are happy and that is all that matters. They have each other and I am so thankful that they love each other so much. Rocky is going to start kindergarten this year and he is getting smarter everyday and going to get even more smarter once he starts school. It will be a whole new experience for all of us. I am so excited for him because I think he will enjoy being with other children other than his family. He loves learning and loves being around other kids so I think he will love the time away from his family especially me. I think since me and him get on each other nerves sometimes because we are constantly with each other so I think this new change will help us all. Brody is getting bigger and smarter everyday. Sometimes I think he too smart for his age. All the time he understands what we are saying to him and it amazes me everyday. He never sits still anymore, he is constantly walking around and playing. He wears me out most of the time trying to catch up to him but I wouldn't want it any other way. He is almost off the Binky and I will be so thankful when that is gone so I don't have to worry about it anymore. Rocky's 5th birthday is coming up and we are trying our hardest to give him the best birthday with little money we have. That is why I was hoping to get that job before his birthday comes so we can have a little bit more money coming in but I just don't see that happening any time soon.


Another reason why I am so down is I can't do any hobbies or hang out with my friends because I have no money to do any of that stuff. I guess the whole point of being down is money. I truly believe money is the root of all evil. I hope some miracle happens because I am kinda sick and tired of living this way.