Update to changes

I have been dreading this post and didn't really wanted to say anything but I felt like everyone deserves an update. I haven't said anything about anything because I felt like we needed to deal with it on our own. It was rough there for a while in our household. I was the only one with a job for a while. We made it work! Last week we had a rough week; one bad thing was happening after another. First we had to put our bunny down, then our starter in our car went out and then our toilet upstairs overflowed and leaked into the garage. But even though all this stuff happened we trugged forward and always thought positive because in these situations you have no choice. You can't give up! Looking back on it I feel like we handled it very well. Chris' life insurance job didn't work out. It was worth a try and it would of helped us in the long run but it just didn't happen. He forked over 200 dollars for the test and the fingerprints and was suppose to get that back but never did. He didn't get anything for this job and he work at it for a month. It kinda disappointed me but I was kinda iffy about it from the start but I needed to have him do his thing and be a supportive wife because that is our job. He needed to learn on his own. Now he has a new job starting to be a delivery driver for Amazon. He just needs to pass the background check and the drug test and then he is all good to go. He already mentioned this. It doesn't matter what we go through we always make it! We have been through so much and we keep moving forward and try to make things better for us. Shit is going to happen; that is just life! We just have to learn from it and try to make a better life for our family. That is all that we can do! We all make mistakes; we all try to make a better living for our family. We would do anything for our family and that is all that matters at the end of the day. If that is our intentions then we are doing at least one thing right. I am just wanted to tell everyone that has helped us one way or another thank you; we appreciate all of you! What they say that it takes a village and I truly believe that. We all have to help one another!! But both me and Chris agree no more commission jobs; no more sales jobs; they just aren't right for families. I think his tranieer took advantage of him but he doesn't like to talk about it so it's time to move on and do better for our family!! It was nice to have him home but I am looking forward to him working again. This will be better for us; I believe it!!

Daisy turned 4!!

This cute girl is 4!

Her favorite color is pink and she is very smart. You have to be careful of what you say because she copies every word you say. She loves animals and tries to be too clingy with them. She is very demanding. Even though she is small she makes it up in her brain; sometimes she is too smart! We love her! 

We had her birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese and it was very successful. I am glad that we were able to do it here finally. She has been wanting to have her party here for a long time. The host did a great job!! And everyone had so much fun!!

Her cake from Target!

All the came to her party was Nana Heckert, Nana Harmon, Aunt Trena, Cousin Aaron, Uncle Kevin, Landon, Karalina, Miranda, Mom, Dad, Sienna, Rocky, Brody and Aunt Johanna and her family.

Changes are coming

After we had that scare a few months ago we realized that Chris' job isn't cutting it anymore especially since his company merged with another company. He now gets paid on the 10th and 25th of every month. That is scary because we are trying to figure out how and when to pay rent. We realized that we needed to make a change financially especially where we are the point where we have to decide between paying our rent and feeding our kids. It shouldn't have to be this way. Unless you have been in our shoes and you have to decide between those two then don't say anything negative. We want our kids to have better. We haven't even did anything this summer because we have been focusing on taking care of our bills and catching up. We don't have any extra money to do anything. Even though I am getting more hours at work it still isn't enough to pay rent so we have to depend on Chris' job which doesn't make enough. So Chris decided to go for his life insurance license. We need to make more. Today would be his second time taking the test; I just hope he pass because we need to do something. We both work hard and it never seems to be enough. Yeah our job as adults is taking care of our bills and not have the easy way out but I know a lot of people that don't see it that way and do have the easy way out. We don't want to be in this situation anymore, we don't want to be struggling this hard anymore. When you have to make a decision whether to have a place to live or food on the table then you have to make a change somewhere. We take care of our bills on our own but we don't have any extra money to do anything else. So hopefully later on today or tomorrow I will have good news. We just can't go on like this anymore!! We want to go on vacations and get a house and we feel like we can't do both unless Chris changes careers. We want to do better financially!

Sienna's 7th birthday party!

Sienna is very friendly and has a lot of friends. She is totally a girly girl! She is very smart and top of her class. When she was in Kindergarten she wanted to be a mermaid princess now she says that she wants to be a teacher. I don't think she really has a favorite food; I know that she isn't a big fan of pizza. The other people that came to her party was Aunt Jordan and her family, Nana Heckert, Uncle Justin, Aunt Johanna and her family, Aunt Trena. We love you C bug! We can't believe you are 7! You are so beautiful and going to go places in life! We are so proud of you!!

Her mermaid cake from Winco with Strawberry filling

I think this is was one of the best birthday parties that she has had. She had 4 of her friends that showed up and that is the most that she ever had go to a party. It was a mermaid swim party.

Sienna and her friend Sara

 

Sienna and her childhood friend Alana

Sienna and her friend Abby

She didn't get a picture with Hunter; he was busy playing with Brody. Boys! LOL! 

She had her first sleepover at home. She has been wanting this for a while and I am glad that we could make it happen. 

I am scared!

I think this is the first time in all of my life that I have been scared. I think I am finally ready to tell everyone what is going on. We need help. We can't do this on our own. We have so much to loose! Now we have 4 kids and pets to worry about and I am scared. My stomach is in knots and I haven't been eating a lot because I don't know what the future holds for my family. I don't know what's going to happen to us and hopefully by me reaching out to everyone we can find the help we need. We are so tempted to file bankruptcy because we don't know what our next steps are. We are late on our rent; we haven't paid for May. It's not that we don't want to we just can't. We had a good system going where we put a 100 dollars towards rent every payday so by the time rent was due we didn't have a lot to pay. We knew when we moved in here that we weren't able to afford it but we knew that we could make it work. We did our research and trust me we couldn't find any place cheaper. We had a rough month in April and got behind and couldn't pay rent for May. So they sent it to their lawyers. We were thinking that we could work out something with them but now they want 907 dollars a week which we can't do. I don't even get that a payday. If we can't do it and we can't come up with the first 907 by the 24th then we have to think about leaving. We only been here for 6 months I really don't want to pack up my family again and move. That is a lot of hard work! I just don't know what to do anymore; I feel lost and scared!! I don't know who to reach out to. I see all these people on FB post about raising money and they get people to donate money all the time but when it comes to me it's like shit on me. It hurts; it really does and it seems like we can't relie on anyone anymore. Please if anyone can help us or come up with a solution I would love to hear it. I just don't know what to do anymore.