Monday, May 20, 2019

I am scared!

I think this is the first time in all of my life that I have been scared. I think I am finally ready to tell everyone what is going on. We need help. We can't do this on our own. We have so much to loose! Now we have 4 kids and pets to worry about and I am scared. My stomach is in knots and I haven't been eating a lot because I don't know what the future holds for my family. I don't know what's going to happen to us and hopefully by me reaching out to everyone we can find the help we need. We are so tempted to file bankruptcy because we don't know what our next steps are. We are late on our rent; we haven't paid for May. It's not that we don't want to we just can't. We had a good system going where we put a 100 dollars towards rent every payday so by the time rent was due we didn't have a lot to pay. We knew when we moved in here that we weren't able to afford it but we knew that we could make it work. We did our research and trust me we couldn't find any place cheaper. We had a rough month in April and got behind and couldn't pay rent for May. So they sent it to their lawyers. We were thinking that we could work out something with them but now they want 907 dollars a week which we can't do. I don't even get that a payday. If we can't do it and we can't come up with the first 907 by the 24th then we have to think about leaving. We only been here for 6 months I really don't want to pack up my family again and move. That is a lot of hard work! I just don't know what to do anymore; I feel lost and scared!! I don't know who to reach out to. I see all these people on FB post about raising money and they get people to donate money all the time but when it comes to me it's like shit on me. It hurts; it really does and it seems like we can't relie on anyone anymore. Please if anyone can help us or come up with a solution I would love to hear it. I just don't know what to do anymore.